I feel better already..

Studied 2 chapters (of 6 in total)
The 2 easy first chapters..
Hell ensues

I did some drawing & it calmed me down
I tested my new black marker.. A .2 mm black drawing marker.. Its nice, tough unusually black. She actually kinda looks like a Goth & that wasnt planned.
Anywho, it had been SO long since I drew that it actually felt Wierd opening the old book again.. I should draw more, maybe then I d suck a lil less :)

Some interesting smses with Jack too.. Bout parents.. interesting

Something struck me this afternoon..
Our society is so mediocre that excelence is a curse

Relieving phonecall with Vi
To the supermarket
Eat
Computer

And now upstairs, to try to learn

I wish I could spend the evening with Vi.. just being together, doing anything.. that d make my day beter!

I had an agonising morning again

My mom chose Today to give me a lecture on Who To Be & How To Live
Thus screwing up half of my studying day, the studying I need so bad for my next exam!

2 hours of annoying waste of time
with NO results

and ALWAYS she has to do this while I need to study for my exams

I should have my own place, work some & study on my own terms!!
Take my full chance in life
Instead of having my carefully planned exam plans screwed over because my mom doesnt seem to understand that I'm studying while I'm up there in my room
She seems to think all I do there is Sleep!

I M SO FUCKIN TIRED OF ALL THIS MESS!
I SHOULD REALLY GET A FUCKING JOB AND LIVE BY MYSELF


Vi had a part of the load too.. :(
Pitty we had to get up like this, she doesnt deserve this kind of shite in the morning
I love my girl :)
& condoms still SUCK

nice evening (When Darkness Comes)
Condoms SUCK (AAargh GOTTA hate 'em)
love Vi (hmmm..)
sleep (witch Vi :D)

Im tired of my blog skin

I'm plain tired

I had a bussy day in studying

I have an early exam tomorrow :/

I feel like Metal.. The Heavy kind :D Gonna be a happy train moment tomorow
I hope I dont run into too much people too soon!

Sleep!
Sayonara

-_-

I already knew that a blog can be very therapeutic, but I just realised that it can even help sex matters..

Have a couple write a blog together about their sex life, in wich they separately post their feelings & their wishes about their sex life.. Everything.. Each time they had sex or just feel like writing it down.. And afterwards, each time they posted they can read & comment (using the handy blog comment thingy) if necesary about the whole thing.

This might be a great way to get people's hidden wishes, problems, .. out in the open, or just a great way to rate sex in a honest way..

Ofcourse couples who have a healhy comunication in between them dont need external tricks like this one :) (wich is the reason we dont need a blog like that :D)

Sex

yeah, thars right, the topic everybody cares about :) SEX!
I have exams, During exams, my already healthy libido TRIPPLES to the stage that I feel like having sex three times a day every day as a minimum! I cant help it & have been told that I'm certainly NOT alone!

Sex! Im glad that people around the world still believe in sex and are free to express their feelings and needs. Dare to talk about their feelings & needs! I have been confronted with that fact 2 times the last week & its nice to know! Its ofcourse natural that people love sex but even then, not everyone dares to have a rich and variated sex life, let alone write about it!
The first blog mostly about sex was Kandi's.. She commented on my blog a while ago & it turned out she has a blog called i'll be your sextacy with the very clear tagline "21 years old - 5'7", 125 lbs - 36 C - BISEXUAL (love my ladies too ;) ) - sexxxy as hell & always horny".. She writes about her sex life, wich seems to be quite turbulent and free and seems to love posting her pictures.. She also seems quite extrovert since she really likes the attention and asks for people to motivate her for writing more!
The second blog was today.. S commented on my lovey duvey post about vi & in my curiosity I checked her blog.. It turned out to be The Sex-Starved Wife with as description the honest confession "I need sex, and lots of it." A nice & honest blog :) With an interesting description of the last time she & her husband had sex. It seems they have a nice and variated sex life
It makes me happy to read that I am not the only person who s able to talk about sex that freely! Some people really seem to have a problem discussing it towards friends or with anyone other than their partner
I'm not advocating anyone to tell their sexlife, I wont start posting mine here either, since my friends probably cant take it :p Either am I giving a hint to Vi here that she has to write about it, its just nice to see that other people have healthy sex lives too & that I'm not a perv :D (lol)

Sex.. Sexy.. I stumbled upon a nice site today whille reading some BME articles.. I was reading about a troupe called "Suicidegirls" and got curious. After clicking some I discovered their site & a nice summary of pictures. Sexy women with piercings and nice tattoos all over them.. Nice site.

..
Sex does seem to still have a lot of social boundries within.. I just felt a doubt about posting this whole post
..
Wierd
..
And I'm not posting anything about my great sex life either (all credit goes to Vi :D) .. Some reason I still think I cant post an explenation about our sex life without her knowing of it up front.. hehe - I just realised we ll probably talk about this post tomorow evening..
& while I'm being honest I might as wel add some other stuff too.. I love having sex with my girl.. She really gets my juices flowing. I love the way she looks :) I fell for the person, but when I discovered her body I fell even more. She s just so Bloody Sexy :) Also, she s Great in bed! I have never had sex this good, honestly! I'm the luckiest man around :D
Wich is ofcourse important since sex is a very important aspect of a relationship.. Sex and Communication can make or break a relationship

Talking bout social boundries.. I just KNOW I'll get reactions to this post in real life!!

Mental Disorder

Free game from mentaldisorder.com
For My darling's convinience :)
I love that girl!
*enamoured sigh*

Funny.. Got ppl trying to order me around who have absolutely NO place in doing so! -_^
Time to mention Stitch :D hihi - To get the eager reaction I expect :D .. people ..

Had an interesting chat with Stitch about RPG.. I had some doubts about it, I already told Vi about it a while ago & well.. it was only a matter of time before I adressed him about it!

Printer jams up till now.. 4
It seems they occur when the printer is too greedy & takes 3 to 9 pages instead of one!

I saw Vi today (and Ghost in the shell 2 too)
I was happy I saw her :) she really makes me Happy :D Simply Happy :D nice!

GitS2 was Nice as expected tough it was a pitty that it was in the original language.. Normally I prefer it like that but with GitS2 there s just tooooo much dialogue to watch the scenes & its a pitty coz the scenes are SO beautyful!
Movie still rules tough..
I have to admit - on the other hand - that I might still like GitS 1 better :/

I also cut the new Chulbeque game cards :) & I showed "When Darkness Comes" to Stitch.. Im SO Curious about that game!! Next step might be printing the "Mental Disease" cardgame.. I'll even put some plastic on it before cuuting them to preserve the cards, as someone sugested tonight..
Not to mention my curiosity about War of the Rings :) I really look forward to playing it! I think I might like it to just leave it & move a piece once in every day in an ongoing war aganst my darling! :) She played it yesterday.. I wish I had too :/

I went to the JH tonight too.. I was there for about an hour.. I was there, thats what matters.. My days there seem to have passed.. Pitty.. Or is it :s

Did I mention I had my car repaired yesterday!! Now to get it looked at again.. :s

& did lots of school work - dont wanna talk about it

& now Sleep
Hectic day tomorrow!

up & kickin

Lets get CRACKIN!



.. OMG!
They re playing GitS2 in Kinepolis Bx!
Fuck EVERYTHING, I Have to see this one :D
Hmmm.... When to go :s

And i'm getting my answers imediately :)
Nice

hihi
Now I just need her voice :D

again,
-_-

Off to bed!

Working on Shelli's skin has given me appetite & insiration to work some on a new one for me.. And above all :/ it has given me discontent over my curent skin :s Annoying!

but sleep it is

I wonder how Vi's game went.. :)

Sleep!

Kisses to my lady!!

-_-

I temporarilly had a nice tough quite feminine blog template.. I was testing it while modding it for Shells.. its nice.. Had to add title, link and comment codes! & some styling stuff..

Still need some input from her tought.. So if you read this, I'm waiting for some mail, hun :p
& do add me if you feel like doing so :)

Another eightysomething pages..
Im not printing everything tough :s Id easilly print a thousand pages in total
& that d be just a pinch too much for my taste

Printing

Doing some random stuff while printing some "course documents"
I'm not printing it all tough..
It d be utter polution :D

Printer lockups so far: 1

Good to know :D

SHANNON: "My theory on this is that modified men have healthier sexual relationships with their significant others"

Now we all know what to do :D

So far..

Installed the printer.. it works Peachy!
Great speed!!
Tnx again to Kaishi :D

Fun at the phone with Tink :D

Dokters appointment was Nice!

I went to see a friend who had a computer question. And in the mean while he took a look at my car and fixed my taillights (wich he normally Does Not do!!) :D Yay!

I also moved some PC stuff around.. Much better now!

short one again :)

ok, i'm Not installing it tonight
tough I want to, Im being the smart one tonight
& going to bed

exam mode :/

Hmm.. Dreaming of Vi this evening :D

short one :)

Tnx to Kaishi for the Laserjet!!!! :) It was had fun tonight..
Installing it atm :)

I bought me "When Darkness Comes - The Awakening" recently.. It looks like a great game! I'm looking forward to playing it on Monday :)

Got an account on Boardgamegeek.. a Nice site with a dumb name :) Its got tracking abilities for what games I have, want, .. with ratings and whatnot for each game.. Its a nice comunity thing, with pictures & stuff.. Wonderfull initiative! My account is Dagen (as always) :D (its linked on the left - I got & linked it earlier but havent gotten to posting before)

I made a plan for the exams & they look peachy.. I might make it
Tough it will be hard since there wont be much time for Vi some days :(

I sent an email to Shell telling her that I'm workin on her template in between the studying.. But also that studying is my main effort at the moment! She doesnt seem to have gotten it tough.. Judging by my comments :D

& now I gots to get to bed (after installing & testing the printer :D) Early day tomorow! & I have to be well rested :/

im having a low self esteem & low trust in my passing chances period!
I Hate It

the past is Such a bitch - once again

The Worlds Tallest Virtual Building

Cleaning some bookmarks, rediscovered this Great page
Prepare for some loadinf time (& i'm on cable, so trust me.. :p)

WTF? I really wouldnt pick this for myself :/

I Am A: Chaotic Good Elf Bard Mage


Alignment:
Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.


Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.


Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.


Secondary Class:
Mages harness the magical energies for their own use. Spells, spell books, and long hours in the library are their loves. While often not physically strong, their mental talents can make up for this.


Deity:
Hanali Cenanil is the Chaotic Good elven goddess of love, beauty, and art. She is also known as the Heart of Gold and Lady Goldheart. Her followers delight in creation and youth, and work to spread happiness, love, and beauty. Their preferred weapon is the dagger.


Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

Since cone.be is acting up I just spent an hour sorting trough my dad s emails to find some info about it..
I sent an email, lets hope things work out ok

Yesterday eve I dedcided to try some thing I have hated and not eaten for the most of my life.. Salami (& Chorizo). All was well, it tasted nice, the taste it left in my mout was nice, all was well!
Untill this morning! I woke up after a pittyful planned three hours of sleep to get my car to the garage & my stomach acted wierd.. Last night's sausage was Definitely acting up! I sat up from my bed and as I did I felt the whole thing stirr & my condition worsen. The tought of puking actually came to my mind! To cut it short, by the time I had clothed up & walked by the toilet I felt like hanging my head in and wait for the goodyness to spoil out! And so I did!
I Painfully Puked Up Hot Crap Mixed With Stomach Acid After Three Hours Of Sleep!
I had planned to study some, but I need not explain that after dropping of my car I wasnt able to do anything else then sleep it off & hope it would be better later on!
Fuckin Chorizo!!! Aarghl! BITCH SHITE!

On top of that, the young car guy is acting up & the car guy hasnt got time to fix it since he s leaving for better weather tomorow! So either the car guy finds time & I have a fixed car this evening OR I have to rely on the young car guy to find time to fix my car in his never ending goodness! AAARGHL!

and now, The Books!

Edmund

When the night is dark,
And the dogs go 'bark',
When the clouds are black,
And the ducks go 'quack',
When the sky is blue,
And the cows go 'moo',
Think of lovely Queenie:
She'll be thinking of you.

possibly my next skin?

With LOADS of changes ofcourse :D
I'll see..

Now to bed, REALLY!
-_-

Funny :)
Since I know Vi close & personal my interest in my former fav sections of BME has largely diminished.. Because now I can have fun with them IRL :D
Its Great!

.. In a way I feel very confident about our relationship & what we can take as a (fresh) couple.. Imagine what we ll be able to take on as a not so fresh couple *Evil Laughter* :D

I ripped me some MP3s for my iPod! Again, large sections of my vast cd collection are soon to be available on my fav Portable Mass Collection Mp3 Player Thingie! :D Im looking forward to uploading them :D hihihi! (for those Anti Mp3 Copy Zealots.. It is my right to backup the cds I bought. As such it is my right to backup them to MP3, and as such it is my right to put that one backup I am entitled to on my iPod! So YEAH, I DO MP3s!) & I NEED TO RIP my Korn collection! I NEED it on my iPod :D
This does, once again, confront me with my 80G disk being full again & my iPod containing another .. say 20g of data :/ I need to get working on that fileserver / router box!!!!!!
I also want to rid myself of mp3 cds! (yes, all legal backups! From records & cds I & my parents own) The data loss is too big, viva biggass disks..
I took the chance of cleaning some of my disks mp3 structure while testing my newly ripped mp3s.. I had some sloppiness & accidents in there, so it seems!

but FIRST!! Exams!

I had a dream earlier today..
probably the first time I have a dream with my dad in it..
.. it felt good (in a sick way) to see him again
but I felt Bad afterwards
so .. I have mixed feelings!
Weird anywho! :/

I wanted to get to bed early today :(
aarghl!

Gotta get my car to the thingy tomorrow! pf :( Why o Why

SLEEEEEEPAAH!

I had en INCREDIBLE game of Warcraft The Boardgame!
It was GREAT! (I might elaborate on that later on.. Or I might not :D) The person who told my friends that this game wasnt worth the 50 euros I spent on it were simply .. WRONG!
Im SO looking forward to having the expansion :) The moment I see it lying in a store its MINE (if I have the money ofcourse.. Tough I might actually save some just to buy it)

In the mean while I'm reading the "War of the Rings" rules (24 fuckin pages). It looks Awsome! I got it from the lovliest girl I know & am looking forward to play with her .. play with the game :) (The fantasyflightgames site has english rules & stuff but I got it from phalanxgames who seem to be the european distributors for the game but only have non dutch/english game stuff on their site)

I also played Settlers of Catan (with the extra sea thingy) again earlier this week.. Great game, Great concept, Amazing! I'm convinced I want it :) Or maybe stitch ll buy it since he was bitching earlier on about me buying all the great games.. :D LOL

When did I get so addicted to board/card/whatever games? :)

I love the fact that I now have a girlfriend who shares that love! We have SO much in common :) She s one of my best friends!! (I have several equal best friends, not one best friend, for those that care about semantics) And girlfriend on top!! Again, I'm the luckiest man alive :) Yet scared to lose her, tough I have no reason at all to be! Being scared only shows how much I care about her :) And I'm terrified so that means A LOT :) (always look on the bright side of whatever :D)
She s always on my mind.. :) *happy*
pitty my dad never got to meet her! :/

Sleep!
Study tomorrow!!

-_-

But

I have a GREAT girlfriend now!
I love her VERY much!

So, Happyness here we are :)

There are days I regret ever having had a girlfriend other than the one I have know..

The shit I went trough in my 6-7 year long love life so far..
it really left Too Fuckin Much emotional ballast! Burdens I have to cary to each new relationship tough there is no reason for it! Complicating what not..

I HATE IT

aarghl
ass morning

Positive side was waking up with Vi's voice

all the rest was ass

Luckilly I'll se Vi again this afternoon :)
YAY!

This afternoon should be Nice..

For those days you just DONT feel like Blogging - Instant Blog Post

Today my boss was reading a book about homosexuality in today's cut-throat corporate world. He was quite touched by the whole thing, so he told my friend Mike about it, and he was all:

"Wow!.. No way! If I hear another thing about today's cut-throat corporate world I'm going to shoot somebody!"

But then when my boss got to the part about the homosexuality, Mike stopped yelling. But this morning, Mike's mother told me that the reason Mike was so freaked out was because he has a fear of homosexuality from childhood. On weekends Mike can be really dumb like that, but he wants what is best for me...

Link of the day: Country Shopping | Randomly generated by Flooble Instant Blog Post Generator

Tired

I blogged some
I wrote some
I downloaded some

..

I read some
I studied some
I chatted some
I called some

..

I Love My Girl :)

..

I got my car & payed for it
I ordered some stuff
I realised I need to put some paper around my gifts PRONTO!
I ate

..

And other stuff..

..

And now I'm off to bed :)

Happy

Whatever & Whatnot..

Rumsfeld says 9-11 plane 'shot down' in Pennsylvania

..
No big surprise..
Bitches

If its truth that is..
aah whatever

Fuck em all
Still can hardly believe wtf happend at the last elections!

my tongue hurts



I love my girl!


Time for telephones

Aqua Azul

We might try this sauna today :)

yeah, I'm tired now
& I failed sleeping early again

It ll hurt tomorow when Vi wakes me at 9..
but I'll get up, it ll be the only way to get in a decent sleeping patern

I studied some today
Some but not enough..

The cr4v1ng story is going along nicely :) MORE active ppl is all we need :D

sleep :/

tum tudum tudum tudum tudum tudum .. Shower Time!

First off.. I succeeded in my "Resist MMORPG test" :) YAY!

I was normally going out tonight, but when we were going to start off, Nijdrop was most likely closed and Vi had already smsed me they were going to have a grils eve, so I had a Guys Eve (lol) with Tom & Dirk..

We played Jacob Hollow.. (Nice, still :D)
and Machiavelli - Dark ages! We FINALLY played Machia Dark Ages! I wasnt able to play it since I got it & we did tonight & it ROCKS! We did an all special chars game & that wasnt all too good an idea but in the end, we LIKE the new stuff! I'm looking forward to big (5+ players) machia games with 3 or 4 expansion chars :D The only thing I'm afraid of is that the expansion might be a bit much to learn to play the game.. Confusing for new players.. So if Vi is interested I'll propose we play the original a couple of times before throwing in the expansion characters!

The "cr4v1ng" blog (in dutch..) is starting up, 4 posts already - its Evil :D Let the bodies hit the floor! We ve got 3 ppl writing so far.. & more comming :D

Vi sent me a sweet sms.. *smiles*

I've got a bussy week commming up

& I think I made Dirk happy by working at the JH tomorrow..

and now Sleep :)
I'm already looking forward to seeing Vi altough I saw her this morning..
(I might want to appologise for my Grumpyness.. Altough she copes with it really well & doesnt seem to mind :) What a SWEETY!!!)

-_-

I did some shopping today, for Vi :)
Ken & mom's present were bought yesterday, Today was Vi's present.. I had mailed someone to see if I was going to be lucky, I got a positive answer & indeed.. So today I went & got her what I'm giving her.. I hope she likes it tough.. I had 2 possibilities, One I was sure she d be happy with and this one, with wich she might be happy .. or maybe she wont..
I'll know on NY eve!
I'm looking forward to giving it :D

I went to school to sign my curiculum..
Pitty the courses where HORRIBLY wrong, so I asked about it and it was a mistake, They ll make me a new one and I have to get back (only to sign it..)

I had a small nightmare.. An annoying one.. Always shite when great fears surface and even worse if they re totally unsollicited for! I HATE IT

And I missed my train
Because I had to change my sleep timers
So I ll see Vi for half an hour less :(
And Im making her wait :/

And my mom just told me Ken's school called about his grades & now the mood is Totally depressed in the house.. And I dont feel like trying to get my mom up again since its a loss of time.. Effort / Return ratio is too ffin low

Luckilly I have a sweet girlfriend :) Vi just smsed me & .. Im the luckiest man alive :)

I HATE MMORPGs !!!!

There s no playing it for an hour!
You start & next time you check a watch 4 hours have passed by!
AAAAAAAARGGHL


Only 10 hours till Vi's here :) Yaaaaaaaay!
Im gonna cuddle her to death :D


SLEEP!

Free Anarchy Online

I discovered AO this week & .. I kinda like it..
its quite fun!
and tnx to their latest campaign its FREE too :)

And now that I'm playing again.. Im putting myself on a diet..
Less playing & more studying..
Ill figure out some way of getting the time equally well spent between the two of them


I heard Vi again tonight :) was nice! But I would have loved to hold her instead!


My mom turned 49(!! not 48 as I tought !!) today.. I think she had quite a nice BDay
We went for some food tonight, Nice Meat!! Really good!!!!
Paddys never fails :D


Im looking forward to seeing Vi the day after tomorrow!
I only had to miss her for some days, but still I wish I had seen her tonight! I really do!! And no, not because I'm horny, I just like being around her! .. Ok I feel like kissing and touching and .... her too :) But hey, cant blame me for wanting to.. She s SO NICE :)
hmmmmm....


Ooh & I started a new Blogger project :) http://cr4v1ng.blogspot.com (check reading link on the left) houses a new dutch speaking storytelling collective.. We all write parts of the story whenever we feel like it & come to a nice & bigass story :) YAAAY!! :) Im looking forward to it, tough some more ppl need to subscribe..


Off to bed!
lata!

Books about Stress & People

Author: Dr. Salvatore R. Maddi
Book: Resilience at Work

Author: Dr. Robert M. Sapolsky
Book: Why Zebras Don't Get Ulcers

Author: Dr. Robert Brooks
Book: The Power of Resilience

Its something about stress & people & stuff..

My Life.. :)
I spent wonderfull time with Vi, just having fun, watching movies, ..

I saw Blade Trinity & Oceans twelve.. Nice!
& I went to see Within Temptation today..

I just got a free Anarchy Online account :) YAY

I do need to study some more
I should have gotten my mom something for TODAY instead of Wednesday :/

The school board is .. a fuckin war room :s We mods dont agree on the policy.. Evilness :s

I need some sleep

But all n all :) I feel Happy again! I finally found someone Nice who feels and acts the same way I do! Feels Nice, Dreamy!!

I was Ordered to eat a spider or "take this Quiz"

3 Names you go by:
3 screen names you have:
3 things you like about yourself:
3 things you hate/dislike about yourself:
3 parts of your heritage:
3 things that scare you:
3 of your everyday essentials
3 things you are wearing right now
3 of your favorite bands/artists
3 of your favorite songs at present:
3 things you want to try in the next 12 months
3 things you want in a relationship
2 truths and a lie
3 physical things about the opposite or same sex that appeals to you
3 things you just can't do
3 of your favorite hobbies
3 things you want to do really badly right now
3 careers you're considering
3 places you want to go on vacation
3 kids names:
3 things you want to do before you die
3 people who have to take this quiz now or eat a spider!

..
Does just posting it count for taking it?
Coz I might choose the spider if I actually have to fill it in! (I did try!!!)

My exact toughts upon entering my room..

OMG it feels Polar again!

Soprano Underwear

I started looking for this tnx to Shell.. Looks Nice :)


"Fuhgetaboutit" Tank Top & "Property Of The BaddaBing Club" Panties

Evil :D

I had a DREAMY evening yesterday evening & a beautifull awakening this morning! I love waking up next to Vi :) (Tough the blanket was bigger than I tought it was :/ Not that it mattered since the room temperature was quite satisfactory :))


I promissed a link to the xVid codec & here it is :)
I was going to put up this explenation, but sadly enough it wont work since its source only (tough I was under the impression that it had a compiled Windows version too.. The xVid.org Download Page where one can find the Zipfile wich contains the xvid.inf that should be installed and can be found in the "/xvidcore-1.0.2/vfw/bin" map :)

So here s the RIGHT link The xVid installer from Nic's XviD Binaries & Paraphernalia ;)

(But if you want (or if it acts freaky :/) I'll install it :) Kiss!)


And now time for work & other stuff.. :)

PVP

A very recognisable situation :)

For all you iPod ppl out there :D

I need to get up earlier
it ll all start with going to bed earlier!!

Yesterday were special circomstances tough..

A watched kettle does not boil
& this one is far from boiling!

Moving data from the iPod to make place
Moving data to the iPod to fill the newly made space
doing some song maintenance (like those annoying cencured Cypress Hill songs - I Have No Clue how I got those since my cd is Totally uncencored. Wich btw made me go MAD! If you Joyfully curse along all the lyrics & then discover most of the cursing missing - Annoying to say the Least!)
And ofcourse Adding my newly bought CD to the collection!

In the mean while tough, shit is still copying & I dont feel like leavin em all on for the night..
Maybe I'll go brush my teeth while waiting.. Its a Shitload o Data! DAMN My laptop's USB 1.0 :(

While waiting.. A realisation I had some years ago..
After my first larp, I had a whole new and interesting insight on how the world works.. What I first percieved as rigid structures, just existing and a fact of the world (like police, politeness, inter human standards for comunication, definitions of whatnot, ..) I then understood are only built by men, and upheld by us, the people living it. Even the people cursing "the system" can be important in upholding the structures. It was trough larp I understood that nothing has to be the way it is. That things are the way they are just because!
This ofcourse crushed a lot of my repsect and awe for some organisations but also built a belief that some structures are usefull! The normal example here (certainly for the youth of today - to wich I still belong) would be The Police! Realising their power comes only from our recognising them and thus giving them their power. A logical reaction (certainly from someone with the hate of Authororty as I am .. equiped with) would be to stop recognising that often missused tool of human recognision, thus eliminating a BIG weed in my idilic garden called earth. But in realising the aforementioned, I also realised that tools like the police are interesting to a certain level and needed in our current society (indeed, they would be abundant in another society where everything would run much smoother & ....) Along with the police came also a respect for taxes.. Most people curse 'em but I now understand their necessity wich makes it easier for me to live with their burden (yeah, in belgium you re already in debt to the state the moment you re born) This change in perspective .. made me in a way a whole new person! My views upon my surroundings have become much less bound by social rules and other things I now understand I can choose to ignore! A welcome realisation!! It made me in a way, the person I am today!
and so far the story of how LARP changed view on how the world ticks :)

Ofcourse the above could be but a bit load of proverbial drivle to fill waste my (& your) time.. I can do that, because I can choose to ignore the social rule that states that I should not waste your time And the rule that sais I should care & feel bad if I do.. Wich I btw Dont! :)

Feel free to leave comments about this all & certainly how you feel about the text & about the lil footnote after the bold text.. Im always curious for opinions on my views :)


The RoD meeting was interesting.. & quite fun

I had 2 great phone calls with Vi today! Really calm & peacefull.. Its so great :) I'm looking forward to tomorrow! I REALLY am :)

Kisses to my girl :)
& a sleep tight to Y all!
-_-

My Holiday Wish List from Villainsuply!

From the Lair section..
EVIL CASTLE LAIR - ULTRAMODERN COMFORT WITH AN EVIL GOTHIC FLAIR!

From the Traps & Torture section..
REALDOLL™ DEATH TRAP
THE WATER TRAP

From the Small & Medium Arms section..
SEBURO 10.375mm-GAUGE ANTI-MECHA RIFLE
ACCUKAK SYSTEMS OMNIKILL MULTI-DELIVERY RIFLE

From the Superweapons section..
BUDGET RAIL GUN HOME KIT
U.S. MILITARY MISSILE DEFENSE LASER
SOL ORBITAL LASER PLATFORM & CONTROL UNIT
POLAR ICE CAP DE-ICER

From the Doomsday Devices section..
PROP "DOOMSDAY DEVICE"
SELF-REPLICATING NANO-VIRUS
THE ULTIMATE FORMULA "X"

From the Miscelanious Evil section..
STROKABLE PUSSY
WHITE HOUSE COMMUNICATIONS TAP
VAGUE, PANIC-PROVOKING COMMUNICABLE DISEASE
OWN A SWISS BANK

From the Mengele Medical section..
HENCHPERSON CLONING SYSTEM
SPECULUM


.. yeah, thats about my XMass list :)
Just get me ALL of it - or Else!

Fact of the matter is ofcourse that one Has to appreciate the Irony in the matter

I'm too friendly sometimes!

I just had an utterly insulting chat with a class mate..
She wanted to say sorry for what she said this morning wich was fine anyway, but her motivation.. Insulting
& utterly rude of her!
If I had tought the same thing I wouldnt even have said it out of politeness!

Curse you all the different blogs on the net :) Coz you cost me sleep again..
I wonder what happened to Doris.. her blog seems to be gone :/

& now for real :)
byyeee

and now to bed it is for me
I ate all the sweets, the crapy music is Really getting too much, the RoD forum work is done, the blog is written, Its time for bed :)

And I realise all to well that it'll be 7 in the morning soon enough :(
gotta go to school :)

Sleep!

Its wierd but I hadnt linked Kirill's page yet..
I noticed this when I wanted to tell Vi the adress of the page & ..

Anywho, he s a great artist, known from the Divine Divinity music, his great piano albums and his great party moodz :)

I hope he ll join us next wednesday :)

Read up on some news
Drank some Icetea punch

..

Time for bed!
Long overdue :/

I just saw The Last Samourai
AT LAST!! :)

Nice movie!
Martial arts are So great :)

I really should pick up Aikido again!!
& another book on Zen :)

Problem also is that this kind of shit (cfr the long post) also screws up my mood & motivation to study..

And so I did..
making me feel better again :)

She really deserves all the kisses in the world for being able to make me feel better again
And I'm making it my task to give them to her :)
YAY!

AARGH
Because I was writing this load of crap I missed her on MSN!
now I AM going to call her :)

YAY

And so I had a difficult moment just now..

the whole leaving home thing flashing trough my head..
But after a difficult 10 minutes of rethinking the reasons and above all the concequences, now would indeed not be the time to do that..
And again the bitter knowlege that if my dad were still alive it would be possible - and probably better!


But now .. Its all about money and correctness..


Anywho, I'm happy that I was able to bite down the whole malaise, go to my mom and say the words needed for her to feel happy for the night.
And while thinking over that whole deal I had some rich & interesting insights about my mom and the leaving home situation.


Funny I get all this motivation over me again right now :)
just when I had a chat with Vi where I told her that leaving home would be nice but isnt something I'll do right away.. Because of the reasons I had to call to mind only half an hour ago to remind me why I put up with shit like that and dont solve those worries simply by leaving home and thereby getting relief on the part that only worries me and the part that affects both me & my mom.. The last mentioned relief would in part solve certain worries for her too! I think.. But in another way, I dont think solving those would be worth it for her.


.. Being cryptic .. is sometimes needed .. but not fun ..

This did professionally screw up my evening. I should simply go to bed!
AND it only aggrevated my other worries!


..
and yet the solution would be So simple
and worth the effort
..
but not worth of all the concequences :(
..

and so once again I decide on an impasse
where nothing changing appears to be the best solution


..
Maybe we should just cancel our regular phone in total!
I'll think about that..
Its a pitty it aint that simple a thing to do!
But doable.. Maybe..
..
Hmm..
Yes, It might be for the best
..

...
Another reason to leave! :/
pf!


It was fine just untill I stopped hearing Vi's voice :)
I tought about calling her again, but instead I'm here, blogging
I'll see her tomorrow :) About wich I'm once again terribly happy!
I really love her :) *smiles*

Working hard, trying to get STARTED

I feel good

& I love Cypress Hill
Tequilla Sunrise....!

A Quote from Shell

In the 60's people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.

What a tought :) Genious!

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952

Great text! Its a filosofy, a way of Life!
There aparently is a lot of confusion about the text tough.. So here s a page wich contains a link to a fully researched history of these great words!


Went to a play with Vi yesterday.. FUN! I finally found someone who ll go to plays with me :) She s such a sweety! And :) We re going for spareribs this evening :D YEAHA! (I only hope they do have veggy stuff too - Ofcourse they will, but still.. - not for me, btw :D Meat Baby!) And all this on the occasion of Anne-Leen's BDay :)

Now for some pre eat food (tough its an all you can eat thingy, but still.. I havent really eaten a lot today!)

Ooh & someone handed me a nice commic.. The drawings arent all that (sprites??) but the noir story is EVIL :) & its in the very tasty warhammer setting! Dwarf Lover

I love my girlfriend!

wanting to
but yet resisting
..

doubt..
I have doubt in trusting someone.. when someone alledgedly does something that doesnt fit within the set boundries..
Then the boundries and the trust have to be reset to match that persons behavior..
Pitty, but good!


on lighter news..
I had fun phone calls this night..
Someone got some news and now he s .. angry - Maybe even hurt but since he can barely give his anger an outlet.. Anywho, the calls this night were .. incoherent and didnt really ammend to something.. Anger has many faces.. Tonight I heard a saddening face.. When anger flirts with agression, I can only feel sad!
But again, Time will tell its tale :)
I only hope it doesnt always have to be told at between 3 and 6 in the morning!


On happy news :)
I got a nice email from Vi & I'm looking forward to hearing her, but even more seeing her soon!! I only hope I dont go mad with curiosity :D In vain coz I've ALREADY gone mad with curiosity :D
She s such a sweety!!


Its a pitty people sometimes have to adress the negative sides in life too..


And..
AARHL I CANT GET MY iPod MOUNTED.. - wierdly enough
I'm running a new kernel now.. 2.6.9-R9 (Gentoo Dev Kernel)
But I should really pick 2 days to work on my box - non stop - so I can get it all sorted out! The list of shit I need to do to get it working as I want it is Sickening :/


I'm looking forward to tomorrow night & friday night! As opposed to this evening :/
ah well..


Ooh & also to an invite I got for the end of the year, during vacation! fun :)


Time for paper!
(and so far another highly incoherent blogger post)

I had a fun evening..
I helped Belle with her wireless home network.. Interesting
some much needed security so that not any wandering nitwit would be able to surf their internet

I missed my phone moment tough :( But I sloved it trough The Miracle Of EMail :)
yaay!
I dont know how I'll make it trough wednesday.. I just hope it ll be thursday evening soon!!

Monday evening was So Nice :)

Im recompiling my kernell so that I'll be able to mount my iPod :) And in the mean while adding some loop device support & other crap I need.. I actually removed some idle crap too!

Tomorrow I need to study! Really! Tomorrow and every day after!!
Certainly now that I've got my three kgs of books!!

My back felt better trough the day but now Ive gotta stop pushing my luck, so Sleeepy time
:)


-_-

Test My . Net - Tested & ok (within boundrys expected from a net test)

inetbench - untested

Hmmm
Chocolate mouse + Banana :D

My back is being shite!

I hope to start on my learning tomorow
Altough I have a work appointment later tomorow night :S
So I'll probably wont be able to start unless I skip math or a miracle happens, waking me up around noon instead of .. LATER :/

I'm off to bed
Ready for sweet dreams :)
..
*Smooch to the girl that deserves it!* (MY GRIRL :D)
^_^

My lovely girlfriend :)
Had a wonderfull evening this evening
watched Exp Rob, Pulp Fiction, Cheers and a sleeping beauty :)
I'm Happy :)

150 euro buys 3 kg of computer books! My poor back!

I need to have a pee!

Yay! 150 euros books..
Nothing interesting
school stuff

But YAY
I got 'em!
I didnt think they d be available, so YAY

(more later, first food)

happy happy :)
Had a nice day today!
dreamish :)

My iTrip has the frequency problem.. My province has frequencies, other provinces have other frequencies, guess its the point to find the one that doesnt have any other station anywhere :/

Im having a wierd moment.. :)
The world crashing down on me in a way..
Clumzy & all..
wierd

Had some food, it was nice

I'm gonna get me some books tomorrow afternoon, school books, long overdue :/ :s I look forward to learning in at least one of them.. Really curious about it - could be Mighty interesting!!

Tomorrow evening :) The last Robbinson (Surviver) of this year.. I'm going to watch it at Vi's place.. Might be a bit wierd, but on the other hand, YAY, Robbinson! :D

hmm Vi :)
*kiss!*

and now i'm off to bed before other wierd crap starts happening :)

Im so sleepy :s
bye bye comp for the day!!

*dreaming about my lady*

ooh & also
I saw the whole Indiana Jones trilogy this month (Viva DVD - tough I have to admit Id have to see them again coz I kinda missed parts :/) and I just discovered that they re planning on a fourth.. Indiana Jones 4 (2006) I hope it ll be worth the name :/ Good news already about the cast.. "Credited cast: Harrison Ford .... Indiana Jones" So YAY we ll have the Indy everyone s used to :) (they can still screw up a whole load tough :/)

Asfor the other three.. I think I prefer the first..

I stumbled upon the indy4 thingy while checking if the credited Michael Moore is the Michael Moore from Fahrenheit 9/11 but he isnt.. He s Michael D. Moore the "Second Unit Director or Assistant Director" and "Actor" and "Director" and "Producer" of many good movies we all know and love :)

Damn, Gotta love IMDB

As some may have noticed, I've grown an addiction

Vi..
The greatest Highs possible :) An Experience to repeat .. over & over & over again :)
When i'm outa vi, I have to admit I'm not all that concentrated & stuff.. mind keeps wandering off & so on :/ But its worth it..
Lol


My plans for presents for dirkie are spoiled! aarghl
Ppl dont always seem to get that if I say that time and no later doesnt mean they can give it nearly 10 hours later !! :/
So I'll have to go tomorrow afternoon requiring me to change my RPG plans & ..
But there s always an up side :D

watched The Forgotten recently with Stitchy.. Dissapointing movie!
Im itching to see the Incredibles tough :D

2 hrs o math today.. the only two hours I needed to attend today - & one of the two teachers cancels :/ Wich was good in a way coz I was litterally falling asleep! Interesting lesson tough :/

I also learned that I have 2 exams in one day.. Math in the afternoon and Database shite in the morning.. I'd like to arrange a different date for the database one but on the other hand.. I dont want to mess up the teachers whatever by being a pain in the ass.. So I'll go talk to the school person responsible for all that & see if its a problem or not.. If it is I ll just take 'em both the same day!

Looking forward to tomorrow night! Dirkie s party.. and to sleep late all sunday :) Im going to Love sunday!! :) *giggles*

My Ipod is comming in handy these days.. Certainly with the iTrip I got.. Its a fun toy :D I only need to reconfigure it a lil.. one of these days :)

Yesterday evening was evil too
With John & all..

This is probably my most chaotic blogger entry ever!
Whatever :)

Blah

hihi
My blog has become utterly boring (more than usual)

walking on sunshine :D

Wonderful

The feeling when things that feel right become reality
Lovely :)

I'm Happy!

Expeditie Robinson (Surviver)

The right person won!
Viva Frank

Sometimes things happen that are so unbelievable and beautiful..
I hope I dont wake up!!!!!!

whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :)

Weekend was EVIL!
Live wat TOO COOL :D
and I'm EXTREMELY happy on a personal level :)

Bag 's unpacked..
SHOWER!

Sleeeeep
tough i'm not quite finished, still have some FFin questions! aarghl

whii another fun phonecall :)
Im really starting to love those calls.. lol

My hear smells all fresh & stuff :)

My second senseo, with sugar..
Rush Here I Come :D
good coz I still got some work to do :/

My back is still painfull

I missed my train earlier today

I saw someone online earlier today I really hadnt seen in a LONG time!! It felt GOOD to talk to her! REALLY good! Im glad she s on my list!
Magic doesnt seem to fade over time!
Luckilly

I made arangements with John to go to the sauna next week & to go out the week after, accidently on Kristalnacht so - Its A Partaai!

LaLaLa


.. we turned away from instant stuff ..

pf, I should Get Crackin!
but :s aarghl

GET WORKING NOW!!!!!
:)
lol
I should really sleep

But so, Work!

Dreadies

DAMN I HATE WET DREADIES!
Its like you ve got 2 kg of extra hair!

Im amazed at the wonderfull job Vi did on the back of mu head tough.. Its GREAT
Cant wait for her to do the rest too :)

whii :)

had a fun phone call with Vi..
I d love to do that more often
I d love to do so much things so many times, dont we all..
lol

Went to Gent today
some RoD stuff..
and :D the Machiavelli expansion :D GREAT GAME!! and The tesmimony of Jacob Hollow Looks like a very moody game
I look forward to trying them both :)
hehe

:s I'm easilly tired these days :( its a backlash from being sick I guess. I was tired from a small walk ik gent (tough not all would consider that a small walk :D) I m planning on going to bed now anyway :)

Tomorow is RoD day.. I have tons of work & since im recuperating today, I havent found the time to actually DO it. I have another problem tough.. I dont have cool pants to wear on RoD :( Its a PROBLEM!! & I dont feel like prancing around in Kilt!!

watched the end of LotR2 expanded ed today while calling.. Some cool additional scenes! Scenes that really Added to the whole & the story of the movie.. & funny too

I really feel like trying Jacob Hollow!! Maybe tomorow afternoon with my bro

guess im off to bed now..
sleepaah :D

-.-

Differences

Geographical social differences
this is an interesting article (tnx to BME) about "rebel" youth in japan
a huge difference from here!

noticed another interesting difference in Shell's blog

im feeling curiously happy in a way..
My head getting screwed by feeling sick?

had a countra productive day
some RoD stuff (cool)
and I answered some long overdue RoD questions..

an important chat with Tom.. (about his RoD char plans)

And now I need to have some toilet time & SLEEP
coz im still tired as hell
the kind of tired I normally ignore totally
but I have the feeling that right now ignoring that feeling wouldnt be The best idea!

I cant be too tired or sick for this weekend

so Sleep :)
^_^

Vote for DIRKIE and he ll make SUNSHINE come out your butt!!

Yeah!
Dirkie for President :D

I found out the real cause for my aching back muscles!
Ive got the flu :/
The flu always comes with muscle aches & .. well, with me thats always my back! (to start with..)

I'm at home, wearing lots of stuff, taking a decent amount of pills to make sure I get better before the weekend.. But I'm slightly afraid about what it ll do to my RoD work schedual..

The dreams I had this night :/ Damn! Sick shit!
I dreamt about .. unity .. between 2 ununifyable matters.. groups maybe.. trough a third rare something.. combined with my RoD concerns.. in somewhat of a post apocalyptical floating cityscape ..
If only I could draw well enough to put what I saw to paper.. I think it d turn out some freakyish material.. Working on it tough!

and now for some quality *lying in the sofa & watching movies* time.. :(
Gonna work some RoD later today tough.. When I'm on pills (antigrippine) I can manage to do it.. Might even go to school tomorrow! Actually I should because its Math!! and I also need to get some stuff from some shops in Gent..

Shower

Hmm

hot shower did wonders
im going to have to watch out not to get sick!!! :/

*gets vitamins out*

AUCH

Yesterday cost me my back :/

Im hurting all over, I was afraid to move too much when I woke up!

It was probably the walking to the car in the blistering cold with a WET T (pure sweat) and a not quite dry pullover thats at the cause of this :/ Aarghl

Oh What a Night

To bed at 8.45 this morning, up at 12, given the week I just had sleepwise, I expected to go to bed early today!

Sooooooo, that was ofcourse without the party this evening :)
I had an EVIL night..
danced the night away.. From 1 till 5.30 Non Stop
and the last dance is one to remember..
Intense :D

And now its off to bed!
I aint doing anything but sleeping tomorrow!!

So kisses to those who deseve them (yeah you)



-.-

My part of the breefings is finished (40 pages) and now its off to bed, 3 hrs of NEEDED sleep & off to explain my piece to 'em ppl - Yay

Sauna

For those interested..

This is where I went & I have to say.. It was Nice!
Fun Fun Fun & probably again next month!
(or maybe even next week! :D)

Next time I want to have all the time in the world tough! I had to be home to help a friend, wich is ok, but relaxing isnt really relaxing if you have to watch the clock!

Eskobar - Someone New

So is it goodbye?
Is it time to set you free?
Is it time to let it fly?
Is it time to let it bleed

We used to take turns
To cover up the pain
Deep below it burns
And the fellin' still remains

You're gonna find someone new
I really hope you do
'Cause I love you
And the sun will come on thru,
It's gonna shine for you
'Cause I adore you

Yes we gave it a try
But maybe for too long
Out of every sorrow
Another day will dawn

You're gonna find someone new
I really hope you do
'Cause I love you
And the sun will come on thru,
It's gonna shine for you
'Cause I adore you

And the road travels on
But I'm still near you
In my life, like a song
I will still hear you
Still

Sun will shine for you
'Cause I adore you...

A great song, always reminds me of breaking up with a Gril I still love very much. Yes, I broke up with her.. Why? Because I saw no future for us :/ We were different persons on a certain level and we were both missing out on life because eachother. And I dont regret my choice! She has a nice BF now (he doesnt really seem to like me that much tough :)) and she seems more happy than I ever could have made her :) So YAY for that & YAY for this song!

I went saunaing today
and I barely slept
and I decided to buy Weerwolven & the Machiavelli expansion tomorrow (viva 999 games)
and I still have loads of work
and I'm going to the theatre tomorrow
and I really didnt sleep enough last night
and BLAH :)

The second my iPod is finished copying the stuff to my bro's HD i'm going offline to continue working

Sayonara!
^.^