I need to Wake the Fuck up & Smell the Adrenaline
coz I'm not at all productive & its ANNOYING me IMMENSLY
Aarghl

& now.. Sleepah :/

I'm glad that its Ravenloft tomorrow tough

I have NO clue WhatSoEver what causes it (looked at it the full 5secs.. It was very hard to keep my mind on it that long - yeah)

I'll look at it later

I just discovered my blogger template is pooped.. The low part doesnt look ok - too much FFin space down below :/ Annoying

I got a letter from Ashes today :D :D :D
YAY
It had nice postcards with explenations
NICE pictures of her house & ..
& a REALLY nice picture of HERSELF :)
She Rules! & looks Great :)
I 'm looking forward to her baby pics :) & the Budha Belly pic :)
I really should work & save up LoadZa money so I can get to PA!!!

Might be next year we go on vacation in America (family thing) and there would only be One state in between PA & .. eeehrm .. North Carolina.. Yay :D would be between Charlotte & Monroe.. The wrong side of.. but whatever.. I'm SO stealin a car to get to her (or renting or whatever.. I'll be 23 then, cant pose Any problem.. hehe.. ROADTRIP!)

I took an Evil test today..

How evil are you?
Yeah! As I always suspected :D hehehe
I tried to get the other side (Angelic) to know if it was possible and Yeah.. I seem to be Honestly Evil :D Yeah

Futurama = cool

Finished the last Ravenloft book I had here
Bought the first Akira (dutch version - yay) of five.. And all together finished it an hour later :) I like it beter then the movie so far.. Really nice!

The book really got me thinking about alternative story telling, asin drawing a city overview & conversation on it.. Its an old trick but I just hadnt tought about it yet

I was in a Fuckin Trafic Jam - Damned - in driving to school - actually took me 15m longer than my worse case scenario and 15m to persuade the school to let me make my exam. Didnt need em tough.. Too Fuckin Difficult Exam! Aaaarghl! HELL
After that I drove to the center o town and had some shoping fun.. Looking around some, .. 2 hours of Calisto solved my reading & chill needs. I saw Larissa in going home.. It was fun

Saw the Expedition Robinson (survivor in english if im not mistakin') I taped yesterday
Looks NICE, Really COOL :)
The mangrove thingy is just IT :D hihi
I really should participate one day

SNOWBOARD :D
As I told before, I might have an American snowboard brought here and guess What
I Fuckin Managed to choose a certain board & producer from FRANCE!
AARGHL
I really like the Hammer Contact 159

Or the Hammer Contact 162 - probably this one since.. well - a know.. thats about the size I need :D lol (being 1.80 and blah blah - whatever)

GOTTA LOVE THAT BOARD :D YAAY - GOTTA love the Blue :)
With ofcourse Flow bindz :D

And now.. Its about Sleepy time - YEAH
I'm agonisingly tired :(

I had an interesting idea today..

A new way to explain the concept of roleplay to someone alien to it. New means ofcourse new to me :)
The idea came to me when I tought of White Wolf's way of refering to it.. They call it storytelling. I imagined how this might lead the unknowing person to say "ok, tell me a story then".. THE answer to such a question would be that I tell interactive stories.. Stories where I need people to participate and fill the roll of a certain character in for me.
Thus came the idea of explaining roleplay as being an interactive story, told by the DM or Storyteller
So next time when people ask what this roleplay thing is, I'll say, Its all about telling a story! I tell people a story & they participate by filling in some parts. Or sometimes I fill in those parts in someone else 's story :)

I'm Unreasonably PISSED

And grew slightly depressed earlier about Math.. I really dont see any point in pressing on with school! I get burdened by crap I will Never use again, Crap without any significance in life or my future carreer path. Crap that I will be able to look up or code my way around if ever necesary! So what am I losing my time on!
The fact of the mather is that even if I would pass this first year, I will need to pass those courses on a higher level next year, burdening and deemed important by other people!
If my toughts continue on this path, I might quit school even on the unlikely event of me passing this year!

Yees.. And so my plan to study & sleep goes to shite!

After the lovely & interesting Pitta meal I got home, did some whatever & when I was about to shut 'em all down I heard a telltale knock on the window..
Dirkie had entered the building
And so, X hours later I am finally able to shutdown!

Ah & I talked to Tomas & we agreed to go to the Jh Weekend together on Saturday EARLY morning!

Studied some
wasted some time (a lot)

Discovered Expedition Robinson is starting again on Monday
YAY :D
Gonna tape it & watch it after my exam the next day

I saw some cool Giger art yesterday, wich required you to put your eyes off focus to see a 3d image.. And I was actually able to see the image wich quite astounded me.. Not because one needs a special viewing technique but because of my eyes.. Been thinking about it ever since, I really want to see more of those now that I know how to "see" them!

Started a new long term room project today.. Drew eyes & a nose on an a4 & put it on the wall.. Next I'll be adding the body & so on .. but only shards.. Difficult to explain in writing, expecially since I dont know what parts I'll draw & what parts I wont.. Probably gonna be a girl, Sitting, probably hands on her knees, .. So I'll probably draw the knees with the hands on.. I'll see :D

Study some more & Sleeeepy time!

Hehe, too evil!
John got himself a Deviant art acount :D
Yay

Look forward to seeing his devs!!

Today numerous things happened
My sleep got messed up :/ slept from 2.30 till 5.30 & was Clear Awake (utterly discusting) then read till 6, slept 6 till 7 - or at least tried to sleep :/ Went downstairs for chatter & TV in between 7 & 8, then slept till 11 :/ Painfull

Did my exam.. Wich is all I'll say about it.. I dont dare say more!

Pool time @ Johns place.. ParTay :) With a lil terrace afterwards (Calisto)

Then the drive home..
On the way I understood why I drive so agressively with this car..
First of all, I dont like driving it, I cant cruze in it, its made for speed :/ So I want to get at my destination ASAP
Second is that I use that style to keep my guard.. So that I dont dull my reflexes.. Wich happens really fast. Its actually not the reflexes, its my eyes.. I go off focus due to disintrest :/ Its scary so I need to stay awake.. & driving keeps me on guard
Another thing is I like speed, being snowboarder.. Luckely I dont drive like I snowboard! Its my biggest fear each time I get back.. If I drive like I snowboard.. THAT would be agressive driving, reaally! Edgy!

Food was ok when I got home
& now I feel like SLEEPING

Might read @ my book first.. Finish it actually
So YAY, SeeYa

I Finally discovered why in my Big Ass playlist Moby was still able to drive me MAAAAD! I had 18 two times! I lovingly solved that problem :) The next problem ofcourse was what genre to put it on my ipod with.. So I teamed it with Lamb under Ambient.. I'm sure that is NOT what moby (or lamb) are as genre, but suits my needs.. (if anyone can tell me.. & Faithless too)

Tomorow Exam - Bweurgh! gonna sign of here to study some & sleep some
Then get Rein & Then pass that SonOvaBitch Exam - AARGHL

Fruit finally has her 20g iPod :) Yay
she was kinda freakin on it to get it right tough :/

Mine is at 1444 songs, good for 6.42G + about 15G of data.. I'm so glad mine is 40G :D
I'm also getting an iTrip so I can play it to my radio!! :) (really gettin set up - Yeah)

Really REALLY thinking bout washing my dreadz! Maybe tomorow before fetching Rein (She ll probably apreciate it - Hehe)

Still reading "Knight of the Black Rose" & still one bundle o hormones :/ Exam Stress :D hehe

Yahoo :D
More BIG SCREEN MANGA comming up :D YaY :D Finally! And one of them will be a Ghost in the Shell sequel, wich is extremely good news Altough I'm curious how it will be since we ve all seen manga that doesnt quite stick and .. the story seems quite wierd.. Anypoop.. I'm looking forward to it :D
Whooow!! Checked IMDB and the Official page and it looks Yummy :D Starring Batou, Aramaki, .. (no kusanagi tough :( since she .. kinda .. married .. in the first movie) section 9 :D yay! And the story looks promessing also! (I read the manga..) The first covers the last part of the manga & this one seems to cover a very interesting killer sex bot thingy in the first part of the manga (if i'm remembering well.. Its been a while.. Ghost in the Shell was the first manga I ever bought, when I was 16 - 6 years ago, so..)
I'm Positively Looking Forward to it :D And the sites are worth checking for the eye candy alone :D

I rediscovered Xara.. check my Dev Art acc (journal & scraps).. Its great..

Aargghl! Firefox is getting on my nerves! It doesnt handle focus shifts very well! It might sound wierd, but it doesnt - aarghl! DEVIOUSLY ANNOYING! Really TOO much! I'll have to find a solution to this, but on the other hand, other things need remedied too, so it 'll just all get fixed when I upgrade to the other box standing near me.. after my exams

And now is Sleepy Time

After reading some Rammstein fora (I want a translation (or german lyrics would do too.. I'll understand, given I can read them) of their new song Amerika.. I think it has a great text but I want to be sure & be able to grasp the totality of the lyrics..) and reactions to them - ppl calling them anti - american & stuff like that, I was once more confirmed in my opinion that Patriotism is a very negative force (so to speak). As is faith by the way. Ofcourse I understand that this is very biased, by wich I mean that it has its positive sides, but the fact that people get driven to violence by those principles..
If patriotism (nationalism) were to be traded for a common understanding that we are one world, one planet - and we re all stuck on it together, the human race would be able to ascend to the next level, beyond pitty wars about whose country or religion or geological position or people are best. Some will say that war is good for economy, but since I researched that this year as a school project I can now say that war is always negative for the participating countries. One way or another, in the long run, the countries lose economically. Lets not forget that human resources (work forces, etc) are an economical factor too! The only way to draw benefit from te war would be to export goods to the countries at war as a third party country, but then again, if we consider the world as a whole, we re just squandering time & resources on pitty conflicts. Some sparked by economical reasons (oil?) but in the end, bad for everyone. Globally an economically suicidal situation.
Patriotism & faith are principles that bring people together in groups that can act against each other, creating reason for conflicts, for war. I'm not saying any of the afore mentioned principles should be banned or whatever, I'm just saying people should know and understand that their actions arent doing any of us any good. Maybe some of us are experiencing short term positive efects, but in the long run, we re all swimming in the shit created by those actions.

Understanding trough intellect..
Instead of agression without thinking!

Romance..
Today realisation finally hit me that romance (true romance) only exists in the minds of writers high on lsd (I say lsd because the probability of people on lsd imagining the existence of something as silly as romance is waaaaay bigger than with any other drug!) Logical solution to this problem would be to find a lsd addicted chick (tough its not certain that she would come up with that crap - lets be honest, the probability of that happening is Sub Atomical!) or become gay & date one of those human lsd wreck writers!
I'll simply give up on it.. Its more simple and attainable!

Klaus Wunderlich.. Together with John I found some of his music & am now speeding it up :) I'm curious about the Absolutely WICKED effect that ll give :D (quite lsd-ish id think..) Anywho, its still gonna take a while since I can listen to it (like 10m) because of me not being able to do one thing at a time! Only to discover in the end I selected the wrong option :/ Grmbl! Ooooooh, We DO have a winner at double pitch tough :D This is one for the next set :D YAY

I finished the Twins trilogy (the Dragonlance, Weiss & Hickman thingy) & against common sense started Knight of the Black Rose (A related Ravenloft story)

I vectored the collored parts of my last drawing today, next step is to choose the right collors & texturise the whole thing.. Wich wont take long given I dont screw up the textures, since I did a nice job in naming the whole stuff.. After I texturised, I just need a decent BG so I can post it again as colored deviation and maybe then I'll use it as a profile pic, with another BG ofcourse but.. I'll see :) I'm not there yet! Still have to get the Hammer logo thingy in place! And ofcourse, not to forget, the ever important Shading!! Wich will be a first time too, so :s I'm curious what I'll use for that one :/ Maybe a special layer of some sort :/ Gonna see that I read some about it first! Saving takes a while tough.. A bit too much layers & vector objects I fear :/ Tough the actual file is only about a megabyte big (in .psp format) PSP tells me its 106.2 MBytes in memory.. 16M collors might be a bit much :/
I was thinking of gimping it next time but after a quick view, I cant really locate the needed tools :/ Maybe I should reinstall Corel Xara :D (that was a Nice proggy, back in the days) Gonna read me some tracing tuts I think.. I should probably find some @ Dev Art :)

& all this when I should be studying!
Its not a coincidence I hate the courses I have to do again :/ Math is ok.. But the rest.. Aarghl, I TOROUHLY LOATHE (How does one write "torougly" anyway??)

I updated my IPod soft today.. I just need to plug it into the power suply so it can flash its mem (or so it tells me) & done deal :D YAY It solves a problem I had with John's firewire and some unlogical behavior with being locked and unplugging the headphones.. Nice - Yay

I wonder if fruit has her IPod yet..

Anypoop.. Time for me to Go to Bed!! Yeees, Sleep!

Sayonara!
^_^

Posted some Deviant stuff

Job s over (YAY)

Looking at snowboards & binds (atm its Hammer & Flow)

Watched some futurama

Studied, But only a pathetic amount

Need a Shower.. BADLY

Dont feel like blogging

SLEEP!

Just had Pizza!
Bout Time!

Nice day @ work
Saw the whole factory
Impressive & Interesting!!

Tonight I'm bringing cake for the colleages.. My departure food..
They re all really nice ppl! I couldnt have done it without them!!

Sleeeeep!

Aarghl
Slept to long
was Soo tired :/

pf
I hope to have the easy one today, yesterday was the hard one again

Just did another deviation
Based on a woman I saw on the street while driving to work
she wore white pants and a lovely black tanga, ofcourse 100% visible, a sight to cherish!
Check it out & comment :D
Its quite abstract.. in a way..

Work was hard again today - luckely we stoped several times

Sleep

Painfull day at work
If I see another Heat Cap in the next 8 hrs i'm gonna KIIILLLL someone!
Grmbl
But the tought of my new snowboard to be kept me going!
2/4ths of the snowboard earned, 0/1 of the binds earned
3 more days to go!
Hands hurting :'(

I made a Deviation, check my acc & feel free to comment.. Its wierd, I know :D

Cat acting shite again, pushing a Keyb off the table isnt really nice!

Bonfire by Lamb is a REALLY cool song!

The hiking trip in September is starting to look OK :) YAY

Sleep!

Work was Nice.. I'm 1/4th of my new snowboard & then another day o work for those Nastay Flow bindz :) YAY Snowboard here I come - Yeah We got lucky this morning when the Sax turned out open at 6 in the morning! I dont think we ll be that lucky every day tough :/

Ieperfest Hardcore.. Ieper is a 1h drive from my place.. I'm still figuring what to do.. I want to go but it d be on my own.. I dont think I know anyone interested to go & available :/ And on friday is my last day @ work and most of all.. Opening night at Decadance.. Wich I cant pass on, might even be piss drunk :/ (likely not tough) So now I'm considering going to work packed for Ieper, then go to Deca and in the morning (like 7-8ish) drive to Ieper, set camp there & sleep then. Another posibility would be to just go on Sunday.. But for some reason I'd rather go both days.. Then there s ofcourse the fact of my herexams.. Hmm... So many things to take into account :/

I feel like telling some about the first time I got drunk.. Its because of Doris' blog.. First of all.. In belgium, legal drinking age for beer & wine & stuff (not the heavy crap like wodka & shit) is 16 years old.. (wodka & whatever is 18) My first drink was ofcourse beer (we have So Much Different kinds here, its a national drink :)) Kriek to be exact, wich is .. eehrm.. kinda cherry beer.. not cherry, but ehrm, I cant think up the right word :) I drank 5 glasses (5x 25 cl - ehrm.. like 5 coke glasses.. they re about 25 cl) in about an hour and then went home by bike. I got on the back bc one of my friends was on foot & I didnt feel like peddaling (never do btw). All went well untill one moment I realised I was hanging behind the bike, my knees (in jeans) scraping over the road.. A second after I realised, I also realised it might be a nice idea to actually let go, so I did.. After that I got home safely & blah, but the story keeps amusing me & the people present at that time :) So far my first time aclohol..

At the Calisto, the place we go terracing before work, has a nice blonde girl working there.. stretched earring, labret piercing, .. Looks ok to my taste, sympathetic too.. Yeah, she really improves the Calisto experience :D LOL!

Did I mention Stitch telling me my dreadz look better than before? :D YAY!
Cool thing also.. Fruit wants dreadz too :D Mentioned it to John & he proposed we have another dreadfull BBQ :D Asin Lotza ppl messing up someone s hair :D This time we have the up side of having it done already & knowing about dreadz (trust me, they re on my head, I know something about dreadz by now..) Not all ofcourse :) Continually learning as we all are

OMG - My CAT is going INSANE in the MEMBRANE

I almost lost this post! I had it typed & .. the blogger java crap almost messed it up! Fuckin Crap! Blogger + java + linux + Firefox = unhappy ME! Ive had Ff crash 3 times already on different posts! Agonising! Aarghl

Anypoop!
Sleep :D

Sayonara!
^_^

Oh & I'm going to try drawing a manga Me :D (do notice heavy emphasis on TRY)