omg.. AGAIN I am confronted with wierd american toughts..
Each vote for Kerry puts the U.N. that much closer to running our country. Do you want France or Russia to dictate our foreign policy?
I would like the world to be considered ONE nation, ONE planet instead of how much different countries! And still there are ppl saying & thinking Shite like that?? DAMN Incredible

The quote came out of the loads of hatemail sent to a woman who put the back of her head up on EBay to have ppl bid to pay her to have an anti bush tattoo on the back of her head.. Sounds a wierd and commercial thing to do, but I must say, she explains it trough her beliefs & .. yeah, i can respect her way of expressing it!
The afore mentioned comment is btw marked as being a negative comment (she doesnt agree with it)
Check the link :)

All & all a good article! The political note is a bit wierd at some time tough, but its ok.. I like the expression.. & I like the message :D lol (yeah, what can I say.. the fucker - Bush - is well capable of bombing any country in the world without any apparant reason, People like that ruling a big part of the world like America is just plain dangerous! A liability!)

Ah & for ppl reading this with Graphic skillz.. She s interested in cover up designs in case Bush loses.. so as she said.. Print it & start doodling on it :D Again, Click the link!!
& to all americans reading this.. GO VOTE! Its your RIGHT - dont let any reason take that RIGHT from you!


Ooh & I read that Shell is indeed a woman (not a girl anymore, so it seems.. - unless you still consider yerself a girl in wich case pls DO comment.. We re only as old as we are in our minds :D), 29yrs old with a 7yr old child :)

Went to Gent for my school thing to get some papers
had some fun @ chocolate bar & stuff
showered
Listening to the new Joe Cocker album (my mom bought)
Reading Akira part 2, the dutch version
finished Gunnm: the last order part 4 (Niiiiiiiiceeee!)
just ate some pasta
sleepy time

I should really update my template tough :/
I need to add the blog I created earlier
& desperately need to add the shellibells blog.. She seems such a nice girl/woman.. Read it :D

Wont be online the next couple o days.. School Breakin Party @ Johns tomorrow, Life this weekend.. Gonna be SO TIRED on Sunday :/

school was quite fun
Dorm Daze is a COOL movie
I finished my lates Ravenloft (The Enemy Within) Great Book!! Thrilling read!
Im starting on Gunnm: The last order
I hear Kirill 's latest cd today (at least 3x), Its AMAZING (get it!!! NOW! HERE!!!
updated my Ipod some
had a nice (& long) phone call with Larissa

Sleep now
& sleep late tomorow!!

so.. @ school.. I cant get Combi (meaning doing 2 yrs together) bc I failed for a total weight of 16 & the max for cummul is 15.. Asin BITCH :/
But I can do a Freaky heavy IAJ & to be honest its quite a relief since that ll buy me more space any way.. So IAJ here I come :)
I'm already feeling more optimistic again

I'm tired now tough.. I couldnt sleep till after 3, had to be up at 7 (leave home at 7.15, so..) and .. well it hurt :) So I slept for 2 hrs (hurting all over), then watched Robinson (I think its called Survivor in English speaking countries) and called some with Stitch for advice on my IAJ

And now, i'm off to bed, for an exhilliarating day tomorow (or whatever) The brighter side is that I dont have to be in lessons before 12.30, meaning I wont go to gent before 11 or what, anywho, I can sleep some more :) yay

The last weeks I have had the comfort of sleep.. I only NEED 3hrs a night to function 100% but I really enjoy 12 hrs :) hehehe

Oh & I got Gunnm: The last order 4 :D I'm SOOOO Curious
But I think I'll finish my Ravenloft book first.. Patience :D Wont be that hard tough since its a REALLY Interesting read!!

Im still really happy bout my iPod btw :D

Pf
having a bweuh period
I feel I should help @ the JH but when it comes to it I feel more like sleeping or possibly doing other stuff than.. Actually I dont really feel like doing anything..
And we all know what that means :s

Im worrying about school & shite too
pf

Do I want to quit school because I feel bweuh or do I feel bweuh because I havent quit school yet..
I think the first option but I kinda believe the later..

Livin la vida
one day at the time

I have my school stuff.. PAIN :/

Ok, so I made a mistake :)
The link posted below is Sarah's Fishermans Friend picture..
My last dev (stitch aproved by now) is Defining Reality - Eyes! I eddited it quite some times before I was happy with it, but this is it! The original can still be found amongst my Scraps

depressing period
My mood is down the drain

Watchin "Home on the Range"
even thats depressing
tough it has Mighty Funny Moments Yall Hafta Recon :D
The fact that they keep the dialogues the same every movie & the main setting & .. is getting quite bothering tough :/ The only thing that they change is the FUCKIN THEME! The Theme Music btw, isnt all that memorable either
The scheme has something funny & cunning (lol) tough.. Amazingly enough..

I did a deviation.. Check it out here! I donty know If I'll keep it on tough since Stitchy hasnt seen it yet & since its his eyes..

I wanted to take a long hot shower.. It d have done GOOOD but when I was finally ready to go, the family was about to go to sleep.

I hope tomorow ll be fun @ Gent :/
Dont know what transport I'll use tough..

Funny site passed on to me by John.. This is the output (translated from THIS VERY BLOG!!!)
..
Ok, got y all worked up for nothing.. it doesnt output Anything & hey, look, I dont feel like trying again. Anywho, the output I saw generated when the url was passed on to me was quite hillarious

On other news..
The Bourne Supremacy is NICE :)
Im getting myself some FREE posters from Vespasius.. You know, the toilet poster ppl :)

& I might me falling apart.. I think :/
I need some time on my own
but its not likely I'm getting it any time soon since my family needs their grief process too.. & pitty for anti social me, theirs is quite social.. And ofcourse, I'm only anti social when it comes to my own problems.. When it comes to anything else (like helping others) I'm social as hell & ... But this time its just too hard to manage, too hard to stay sane!

I want to go to bed early today..
A failed effort ofcourse, but still.. I 'm trying

Mage was Nice
We all had fun..
And the scenario didnt get into to way (:s)

Sleep now!

Emotional Chess

The game one has to win to be able to talk with a person about his problems / feelings / emotions
Some ppl are better players than others, in both roles

I need to get outa here
I'm silently going insane
My mom thinks I should stay in out of respect
I've been staying in out of respect to her all week long
I AM going insane
this is really bad for my mood & what not

I cant do anything, I dont have any privacy
I wanna do something and be able to be alone doing something if needed

maddening

we read the cards.. Im glad its over.. Liquid Agony!


I HATE being forced into Other peoples ways of mourning! Wich is exactly what I've been going trough the whole last week. No space whatsoever for my own process..

So far the funeral
I'm glad its over
I was really happy & sometimes surprised at all my friends that came! Altough the last person to enter was the bigest suprise of all! I hadnt expected Dorien to be there but I'll probably be happy for the comming days just because of it :)

I'll write something about all that later on

Omg!
I just read a BME article.. (check link) A follow up on Todd Bertrang being put to jail..

The American Justice System is an OUTRAGE!
Justice like that propagates the conformity that drives people to all want to look alike to the extremety of cosmetic surgery. (Conformity vs "body mods" but pro cosmetic surgery.. Isnt that a body mod too??)

The things they do, tricks they do to put and keep a man in jail!! Outrageous! Even to the extent of child porn allegations. Allegations a person has to prove himself innocent of. Whatever happened to innocent untill proven different??
"Guilty until proven Innocent" Justice you say?

DAMN I LIKE EUROPE!

Sow

The funeral is in some hours.. yay
Washed my dreadz for the ocasion

ROD meeting was nice.. Nice mood
short visit to Nega..
My social skilz werent all that.. I just wasnt up to the bullshit. I just wasnt there, I didnt feel like it..

Talking to dirkie about the JH..

& Sleep now

I finally had the courage of informing some online ppl, like my class (board) and the WFRP guys (EMail)

Been getting loads of smses from unexpected ppl.. I'm glad my cell had this 60 something messages memory! Nice tough to hear from them!

My mom found my black *replace by correct word for nice shirt like thingy with buttons in te front middle, all way down* in the winter clothing (She put it there accidently) So I dont need to go shopping for one :) YAY

My friends are dumb.. They think I'm listening but instead I'm blogging.. They re telling me song names & crap.. The only way I ever hear a word is when Stitch pokes me.. Or when he goes German "Du bist was du ist".. Yeaha

Stitch just read this.. They re all poking me now :s
braindead I fear :s

Sleepy time
We played Bo*poke*mberman earlier.. was amusing!
Warcraft 3 failed tough :/
Movie too

Stitch doesnt know the difference between a normal & a cross link cable
& Dirkie is talking about penetratin cool chicks in informatica

Du riechst so gut
I dont think they understand much what I'm typing
they dont really say mu*poke*ch

Dirkie says Penetration and Fit Blieben
Stitch says Schwanz Blazen
Kneth isnt very talkative.. I think he s doing it all :s

Sleep

Funeral of my Dad
This Saturday @ 11.15
Yall may come along :) :/



My future prospects are .. different with whats happened

I always planned not to stay @ home too long, with my dad & mom around.. To have my own life/place.. So they could have their peace & fun.. On their own.. But now that my dad isnt around anymore, asin alive.. I'll probably stay home longer..

Completely different :S

The worst part is constantly rediscovering my dad is Dead.. I have fun for a while, do some shite (Stitchy was here, fun!) and then one moment, lightning strikes & I remember My Dad Is Dead!

My dad, My father, ..
Incredibly hard

Sleep!

My views on life are about to get a whole lot less interesting (yes, that actually IS possible) since the next weeks I'll be spending my time by bitching about whatever

Mostly about the bad luck my dad had these last days!
There was so much I was doing with him.. Computers, Linux, Drawing, Interhuman Observations, .. I constantly had interesting talks and discussions, in the 30 minutes he drank his koffie before going to bed.. To calm his toughs..
Or when I get home late at night and normally I would find my dad sitting here by the comps, doing something
Those will be the hardest time.. When the others have gone to bed & I'm sitting here, alone.. where normally my dad would still be here.

*cries*