hmz.. its kinda happening

Observing older people I knew it was bound to happen.. But its still baffling to see it happen to you.. Growing older, it seems friends grow appart & well.. loose eachother! The only way to keep seeing people regularly is to hide away in some sort of an organisation.. To have a reason to see eachother except .. just because you like eachothers company!

and now, at my 23 and with mostly older friends, its happening.. I know I wont be believed telling this to people or saying this out loud.. Everyone invloved will deny it, but in the end I fear I will be right! I ve seen this happen before in a way & that time I didnt care.. I kept my good friends, still have some people I occasionally talk to and enjoy talking to and others I just .. dont see anymore, and dont worry about it either! But I dont want this to happen with these friends!

Ofcourse everyone has his onw priorities & ofcourse I can understand getting older & needing time for your house / girl / .. and everything else even! But in the end, its just Extremely sad to see it happen & actually understand it happening! And it seems like I'll have a front row seat to it!

And .. you know.. Its my fault for a big part.. I moved to Gent, 30m drive from where we roam.. and without any decent means of transportation.. And I realised this when I took my decision.. But .. I needed my own space & here is the only logical place with school & shite! But even in .. being an active part of the process.. I can still grieve it! Its a pitty & Id like to stop it / not have it happen! But thats just beyond what I can do!

So I'll be observing
From my first row
Hoping that I am wrong about what I'm seeing
Yet fearing that I'm not
!