2007
This might be a moment of .. reflection.
Its been a year now. One year ago. What did I learn since then?
I learnt some about limits
I learnt some about .. people. I trust to easily. I tended to give people too much credit & I'm in some difficult situations because of that. But that's what lessons cost!
Some about my own too.. I have a limited patience for incompetence. Although its still quite big.. Limited! Although I should really put some of that to action. There s enough and enough is ..
Some more about what I should expect from other people! :)
life's lessons - they all come at a cost
I need to start writing some stories. All I really need is time.. Time!
And a new blog! A new place where I can write what I think without knowing that a lot of people WILL read it. This place used feel private. But I've been too chatty about it & now I cant write what I need anymore. My name isn't on here anywhere but I'm quite sure that if needed it could be found out.. traced. And I seriously need to VENT some shit. Yet I don't feel like giving up this history. These bits, bytes and letters are a part of me. (sickly sweet, no :/) I never planned on this getting so big. Getting this attached but here I am at this very moment .. omitting to it.. again.
"committing to it.. again." somehow this part disturbs me. It keeps on ringing in my head. What does it mean. Does it really mean what I fear it does. That I am dependent on this? That I am dependent on anything? Addicted.
We cant have that :) I obviously have a problem with The Permanent Record! Because that's part of the problem.. Or .. no.. That's part of the problem but not in the way I meant when I just wrote it. I do feel I can use a permanent record. Permanent records are OK. Yet I might have to go private on it. But CAN I do this. Ive been thinking about this for quite a while. Move this to privacy & backup daily. Even off the net, why not. Every decent man with something to say should have one. Not that I think this drivel to be interesting or even important, but I believe I do have .. something to say once in a while :)
Apparently I have a happy & concentrated look on my face while writing. Mini just woke up for a second.. sweet! I'm writing the funniest typos right now. I should reread this! but I wont since I never do :) (Viva Spell checkers though!)
I have a certain feeling about this all that annoys me. but again I wont go into details here
The fact of this matter is in the end that I use this blog to straighten my head & spew out a lot of my thoughts. Another fact is that I simply have a lot of shit to tell that I don't feel like putting this weight on anyone. Too much gibberish, too much madness!
1 comment:
Don't be a bitch- you better link me!!
Honestly, I think you should say what you mean and feel, no matter who is reading. but thats just me!! xoxoxo
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