So..

Yesterday I went to Hannah & Evi s play.. Nice!!
had interesting chat about the movie plans I have with John..
for wich ive been looking up stuff about government funding & i'm quite sure we can apply :)

Today I went to the Night of the Proms.. Nice! Shaggy was ok, Joe Cocker was Nice, James Brown was an act to Remember (!) As I said to my mom.. I really wanted to see James Brown! The only other artist I waant to see badly is Barry White.. But sadly enough he's dead already :'(

And then shit went sour :/ The bus was too cold, The movie was downright painfull (bout a woman with 2 kids losing her husband :/) and after that we tried starting the car & it wouldnt start :/ AGONY Tough Thomas brought te resque - luckilly!!

There s only one thing I find hard to understand :/ Howcome I couldnt get to Tom, Dirk and Kenneth!! I called them at least 10 times (each) & none of em picked up their fuckin cells! UN FUCKIN BELIEVABLE! I mean, Dirkie ALWAYS picks up his cell & the ONE time I REALLY need ANY of them to pick up their cell.. None of them do! THE FUCKIN WHATEVER! Its really beyond my comprehension! .. I really dont understand! Maybe because I was calling with my moms cell, but still.. If someone calls you 10 times, you normally pick up the fuckin phone, no? Figuring its urgent & shite!
Last time I was playing Kenneth called me, not wanting to ineterrupt the game I didnt answer my phone but when he called for the 3rd time, I answered just because he might have been in any trouble or whatever! But :s and of all ppl, Tom & Dirkie, whom I tough I always could depend on.. This is REALLY wierd.. to me :s

Trough the evening & day, with all that happened & so on, it once more became undeniable that my dad is dead :/ This morning when I woke up it was the first tought on my mind.. I was an hour or so in "slightly awake" state & it didnt leave my mind for a sec.. & then later on with the whole car crap :s Painfull :'(

But anywho.. Sleep now!
tomorrow games thing in holland, gotta be at JCs place at 9.30 to depart, so.. SLEEP NOOOOW :D

Sayonara
^_^

Upset.. I find myself VERY upset with someone. She probably doesnt even realise this, neither would she guess or even understand why but still - the feeling is there!
And from when I had it before.. Its something that burns all the bridges. Once I have it, there s no getting rid of..

I talked to Ashes yesterday!
We talked about death.. I told her about my dad (I had waited because I didnt think such news would do her good in the week she was having her lil darling) It flet good talking to her about it!

I'm updating my iPod some.. I had some mps waiting around.. 453 are now being uploaded - yay

Stitch is buying an iPod too.. exactly the same - yay
I was still able to surprise him with one of the easy things about an iPod.. YAY :D

Im so glad my samba is working again!!!!!!!! I missed my music
now just to get the sound & crap working
.. First some java & cobol!!

I figured out the cobol.el.gz riddle, but now it just crashed as it loads :(

anywho - YAY

Ooh.. I learned today that Andries started blogging - check the friends list & that my fav fruit on the web picked up her blog too - YAY :D

Sleepy time :D

Emacs fun

yeah!!
*puke*
they really have good info's *rolleyes*
Got stuck with a .el.gz file I desperately need to use
& now I need to figure out what the fuck that file is, how I use it & where I need to put it.. and how & ...

samba is up again tough

I so need to get that all in line so that I can FINALLY get to my school work
I feel like progging Cobol but I m not able .. yet
(actually I already am but Id lack some comfort I wouldnt like to give up *blushes*

I'm on coffee again :/

.. reemerging xemacs & the sumo pack.. pitty clomo isnt part of the fuckin 15MB sumo pack *rolleyes*

..
...
.....

ok, I give up for today
I managed to get a wierd but relatively expected screen
so YAY
& ..
More Tomorow!

Sleeeeeep

Dreams

.. I remember a dream I had this night..
or at least am starting to remember it

Seems that my mind s still in places I tought I left behind (gave up) a while ago.. :/
hm :s

The party on Friday was FUN! Really Evil
The games on Saturday were fun too.. First we played "Beer Money" - surprisingly Nice and then we had a "Zombies!!" fest :D hehe.. Played for about 4 hours & .. yeah, it was Fun :) I came close to winning in the middle and did a miraculous come back in the end, so that I surprisingly won..
Nice game! But I think Id rather buy Beer money (or lunch money or ..) than Zombies..

Im looking forward to tomorrows Robinson..

And now, Food!

school was ok
Not as interesting as I had hoped tough :(

Spent some money

Spent some nice moments with Anne.. We can still spend enjoyable time together. We can still just be together & talk as we used to. Its nice to know a girl who knows you & above all accepts you as you are! This on the other hand shows how I close myself in normal social contact. Amazing. At any rate, I need someone like that around on a full time base :) Not Anne ofcourse! That moment is gone for the both of us.. She seems very happy with her curent bf.. A nice match!

I finally have decent file explorers.. of wich 2 3d versions :) funny!
This means I can clean up my mess my home dir!!
I still have loads of work to do :/ GIFT, Samba, Sound, .....

RoD meeting was fun..

Sleep now :D

Warcraft - The Boardgame (WC for short ;))

Cool game!
played from 12 till 3 with Stitch

Evil!
The game shifted constantly
Stitch had me at a point where I wasnt even sure if it mattered if we played the next round (but we did & the game turned around again).. it was Nice! And amazingly tough it looked bad at times, I even won (exhaustion race with resources & stuff..)
Has a degree of luck involved too

I kinda want more scenarios :D
& am looking forward to playing the 3 plyr Tree of Lordacil scenario :D

AND I'm looking forward to the expansion version!

And now, Sleepy timeaaah

The un easy feeling has gone, tough just beyond eyesighty.. anywho, thats cool
the pain wont go leave me be, but thats normal, given (much) time that ll ease too
& the malaise.. :/ well, that s not gone either but it ll take less time than the pain, so :D or at least I hope so

I'm FUCKIN bussy these days!
I wanted today to do some important shite (like school) but since I promissed jack to help Tinne tonight, my plans are crossed once again! Aarghl! I hope I'm able to do what I'm supposed to :( Altough I KNOW I wont be able to :(
I want to play WC!!!!!
And the next days will be equally bussy so :'(

Yesterday was fun! Onvrije Schipper, Polle Polle, Casa di Kaishi, .. fun!

Ohh, I just read Shell's blog & she copied the Bloody Long Questionaire.. Its interesting :D

Blah!
Reboot to my new kernel!!
& read some
& FINALLY get working on that comp I have waiting here!
ah & I might even put the sides back on my box!!!! :D

a questionaire I found at glitterplagues Deviant Art journal

IN ONE TRY..TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR:

FINGERS: gert
CHIN: tgerrerty
ONE FINGER WITH EYES CLOSED: gert
CHEEK: tgert(tc
ELBOW: tgerrtft
LIPS: grrt
PALM: gertr
BACK OF HAND: ggert
NOSE: t"'(
TONGUE: gert

-----------------DESCRIBE---------------
YOUR HERITAGE: eh??? ehrm - Belgian?
THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: none so far (but probably Blue DVS)
YOUR EYES: No Clue.. blueish? Greenish? Red in the picture on my fact sheet..
YOUR WEAKNESS: memorising things
YOUR FEARS: losing limbs
ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: to uphold the luxuary I like :D

-----------------WHAT IS------------------
YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: Aaarrghl!!!!
THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: Piercings
YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: Lips (someone once told me.. long time ago - I dont believe her)
YOUR BEDTIME: ehrm.. from 10 at night till 11 in the morning
YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: ehrm :s
YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: wierd enough my dad :(

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
PEPSI OR COKE: They both taste like crap
MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: McD
SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Single
ADIDAS OR NIKE: Whatever
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate
CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Coffee (as a mather of fact.. naah too late)

-----------------DO YOU------------------
SMOKE: Motherfuckin Hell NO!
CUSS: Eh?
TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: during summer.. Winter, every other day
HAVE A CRUSH(ES): sadly enough yes :( Just one tough
WHO ARE THEY: Doesnt mather
DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE?: Yes
WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: I am in college
LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: I had fun there
WANT TO GET MARRIED: jup
TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: Whetever key I strike is the right one!
GET MOTION SICKNESS: I used to
THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: .. no
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: Nop :D
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: yeah
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: A Lot - but not when I need to use the comp
PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: not really

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------
DRANK ALCOHOL: Jup
SMOKE(D): NO
DONE A DRUG: Jup (alcohol = drug!)
HAVE SEX: no :'(
MADE OUT: no :'(
GO ON A DATE: nope
GO TO THE MALL: the mall.. we dont have that all too much in Belgium
BEEN ON STAGE: Life is a stage :)
BEEN DUMPED: luckely no
GONE SKATING: .. no
MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: Nope
BEEN IN LOVE: maybe yeah
DYED YOUR HAIR: No way :) I like blonde too much
STOLEN ANYTHING: No

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
FLOWN ON A PLANE: yes
MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: ehrm.. dont think so (its belgium, it ALWAYS rains)
TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: Countless times
CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: .. no, I dont easilly REALLY cry
EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT?: I love Manga :D (asin YES)
HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND: ehrm.. dont think so.. eh.. AH! Yes :D
BEEN ON STAGE?: Yes :)
CUT YOUR HAIR: Who hasnt .. oh wait.. What hair :s .. Whatever, Who hasnt :D
HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: ehrm.. kinda
PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING? wierd enough not
BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED.. Several times already (auch!)
BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING": jup *blush*
BEEN CALLED A TEASE: Yeah & I Like it :D hehe
GOTTEN BEATEN UP?: not really
BEEN IN A FIGHT: yeah.. altough I really didnt want to :(
SHOPLIFTED: No :) (actually really No :D)

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: late 20s
NUMBERS AND NAMES OF CHILDREN: .. between 0 & 2 and ehrm.. something nice tough wierd
DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: .. :s
HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: quick, painless, messy
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: Happy
WHAT COUNTRY WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT?: .. ehrm .. Cuba s high on the list

-----------------OPPOSITE/SAME SEX------------------
BEST EYE COLOR: Blue (whatever really)
BEST HAIR COLOR: Blonde (natural pls :D)
SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Long hair
BEST HEIGHT: 1.75 :D (its an observation, not a choice)
BEST WEIGHT: not too thin (!!) not too heavy :)
BEST FIRST DATE LOCATION: first date ? :s
BEST FIRST KISS LOCATION: .. Anywhere really, its the person & the mood that count

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
NUMBER OF BOYFRIENDS/GIRLFRIENDS YOU'VE HAD: only counting serious ones, 5
NUMBER OF KISSES YOU'VE GIVEN: Who s counting
NUMBER OF DRUGS TAKEN ILLEGALLY: eh? ehrm.. 2?
NUMBER OF PEOPLE I COULD TRUST WITH MY LIFE: quite a lot I think
NUMBER OF PIERCINGS: 1
NUMBER OF TATTOOS: 0
NUMBER OF TIMES MY NAME HAS APPEARED IN THE NEWSPAPER?: No clue
NUMBER OF SCARS ON MY BODY: too much to count
NUMBER OF THINGS IN MY PAST THAT I REGRET: nothing that I'm responsible for

----------------FAVORITES---------------
SHAMPOO: Tahiti Black
FAV COLOR: red, yellow
DAY/NIGHT: Night
SUMMER/WINTER: both
LACE OR SATIN: Lace
FAVE CARTOON CHARACTER: .. Gally maybe, or Yoko..
FAVE FOOD: Chocolate, Tasty spicy food, meat, ..
FAVE MOVIES: Ehrm, difficult question.. The ghost in the shell, Moulin Rouge, Alien, James Bond, The Village, ..
FAVE SPORT: Snowboarding :D

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
WEARING: Black Venoms, some Tshirt, Carhartt pullover
DRINKING: nothing :(
THINKING ABOUT: sleeping
LISTENING TO: The radio - Stu Bru

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
CRIED: No
WORN JEANS: Yes - Venom (its simply very baggy jeans)
MET SOMEONE NEW ONLINE: ehrm.. yeah, he was new to me online tough I already knew him irl - Tubby
DONE LAUNDRY: Nope
DROVE A CAR: Nope
TALKED ON THE PHONE: too much :(

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
YOURSELF: Yes
YOUR FRIENDS: uhu - yeah
SANTA CLAUS: ofcourse
TOOTH FAIRY: :s we dont have her here :)
DESTINY/FATE: .. no
ANGELS: I know some Angelic girls :)
GHOSTS: .. nope
UFO'S: yes (them simply being Unidentified Flying Objects, asin anything flying I cant put a name on)
GOD: nope

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
DO YOU EVER WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER NAME?: nope
DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND?: no
DO YOU LIKE ANYONE?: Yeah
WHICH ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ACTS THE MOST LIKE YOU?: cant put a name to it
WHO HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST OF YOUR FRIENDS?: .. Tom & Dirk I guess
ARE YOU CLOSE TO ANY FAMILY MEMBER?: hm.. close
WHO DO YOU HANG AROUND THE MOST?: ehrm.. John, Stitch, Dirkie, ..
WHEN HAVE YOU CRIED THE MOST: When Anne dumped me I guess.. No, I cried worse when my dad died.. Anne just seems worse because it was public..
WHAT'S THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: making Love to someone (not sex, mind you.. love!)
WORST FEELING?: .. my back to 15 moods
WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?: ehrm .. 5.13 in the morning

-------------------CURRENT-------------- -----
CURRENT MOOD: Sleepy
CURRENT MUSIC: Stu Bru commercials
CURRENT TASTE: neutral
CURRENT HAIR: Blonde dreadlocks
CURRENT ANNOYANCE: my right arm
CURRENT SMELL: neutral
CURRENT THING I OUGHT TO BE DOING: Sleeping!!
CURRENT WINDOWS OPEN: gAIM, Xterm, Glitterplagues DA, my Blogger acc
CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE: Gunnm bg
CURRENT BOOK: Tanya Huff - Scholar of Decay (a ravenloft book)
CURRENT JOB: Student

--------------DO YOU EVER/HAVE----------------
A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK?: .. not that I can remember
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE?: Yes
STILL LOVE HIM/HER: No
READ THE NEWSPAPER?: sometimes
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER?: .. I do think so yes
CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS?: Yes
CONSIDER LOVE A MISTAKE?: no
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL?: No
HAVE A FAVORITE CANDY?: yes
DO WELL IN SCHOOL?: honestly - no
WEAR HATS?: no
CLOSE FRIENDS?: yes
WISH ON STARS?: No
LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: ehrm.. I myself do :D
CARE ABOUT LOOKS?: honestly? yes I do..

---------------LOVE AND STUFF----------------
GAY? STRAIGHT? BI? NULL?: Straight .. altough .. isnt everyone slightly bi?
FIRST CRUSH: ehrm
EVER BEEN IN A THING CALLED LOVE?: yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: .. almost
DO YOU BELIEVE IN "THE ONE?": the one as in neo? (in the footprints of Lara & Jena)

..............ARE YOU A..................
WUSS: nope
DRUGGY: No
DAYDREAMER: .. yes
FREAK: some say I am
DORK: I'm a docter, scotty, not a damn dork!
BITCH/ASSHOLE: .. actually no
BRAT: .. no :D
SARCASTIC: When needed :D
SHY: seldom
TALKATIVE: sometimes
ADVENTUROUS: hehe, jup!
JOKER: .. I guess so

................LAST (THANK GOD)...............
LAST BOOK YOU READ: Chet Williamson - Mordenheim (Again, a Ravenloft book)
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW: The Village
LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK: Lipton Ice Tea Punch
LAST TIME YOU SHOWERED: ehrm .. Yesteday
LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Stitch

.. whow, what a questionaire - lol
and now.. SLEEEP :D

Template Changes

yeah, so I did the changes (finally)
As you can see I now have a Title and a Link part.. Both optional and working
yay

I should really recompile my kernel.. Funny how I never them right the first time! Once again I added the annoying priority shifting crap, making my X feel very windows like under stress (but preform better in important processes because they get the most processor time yada yada best for desktops my asssss!) Gimme the "Everyone s Equal" way (best for servers & other crap TM) I'll probably even screw up burn processes this way! - dont want to find out! Anywho, its ANOYING!

Compiling on 2 virtual TTYs over SSH at the moment.. yay

I helped Jack with his comp today - more yay

I unpacked & read trough Warcraft The Boardgame today - funfun

blah

I should really fix the link thingy

Dominique (tnx to Shell)
Very inventive & Cool thingy!

And the girl in the graphics is attractive too :D

Im tired

Today was a Successfull day!
The games fair was gun
I got myself "Warcraft - The board game"
We had an Absolytely EVIL place - We Impressed!
Ah & for the first time in my life - I saw Cosplayers :D (I mostly know the concept from the Real Life commic..) They were funny :D A very atractive elf as Legolas (yum) and a girl doing Lara Croft (yum) amongst others ofcourse :D And I should add that I was there for RoD, wich is a Larp organisation :)
OOoooooh & I drrrrrrrrrrrroooooooooooooooled on the new White Wolf gear :D "Mage: The Ascension - Ascension" to complete my mage collection (as far as Im interested that is, there s a lot more but thats just too much for me) and ofcourse the new "World of Darkness" base book :D SO cool :D I scarecely could contain myself - luckely for me the WC board game was cooler, so I quickly bought that one, before I could do silly stuff (like buying all 3, thus spending about €85 instead of €44)

And :)
Dirkie was absolutely Suprised and Happy with the ppl there (or at least he said so several times at different moments) Tough I said id drive him & in the end I got more drunk than he did (2 guiness in an hours (maybe 30m) can fell a man :/)
Wich on ist own makes it a succesfull day (the dirkie part, not the booze part)
There were a load of ppl, around.. easilly 20.. More like 25, but not 30 (you see where I'm getting at.. :))

I got Vi slightly angry at me today.. Ironically purely out of concern.. I might try to explain that to her one day :s I probably will next time I get to chat to her :) Or when she does my dreadies some day..

Met the cooles guy today :) EVIL dreadies - 12j old.. cool cool! Gave me hope for dreadfull employment too. A GW guy.. Bought me a HotDog too.. I was UTTELRY surprised he actualy did! Cool person!

Anywho, I'm off to bed, my back muscles hurt like Hell
& I want to read the WC - BG manual :D

Cu later kiddies!
Sleep Tight & kisses to the person who doesnt expect it :) (you can tell there s still alcohol in my blood.. Otherwise I NEVER would have written something as silly as this - Its my overly romantic self comming up again)

Look out with Kanji, be sure before putting it somewhere!

This site explains it all So well :D

Did a sex check (tnx to shell, check the linx for her blog).. Interesting..

Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz

life IS cruel

Recognising XF86 for the bitch that it is!
AARGHL HOW I HATE WRITING THAT CONFIG FILE
Its such a BITCH
A Hatefull waste of time
& thinking that I have an operative version of the file on my regular box
Bweurgh

Facts in Love & Life..
I'm truely starting to doubt that I'll be able to dedicate myself to someone..
bweuh

omg.. Agony
Hmm.. coffie for my Blistered soul!!
I'm sick.. :/ Simply the flu but still..

Im doing my new Linux.. A gentoo & am now at the stage where I install a SHITLOAD of software (part one).. The next 24h will be filled with compiling & downloading.. yay
My former linux is broken.. One of my disks crashed and now its cripple. It was the disk with my /var, /tmp and swap on.. The tmp & swap pose no problem, but the /var missing is a BITCH!
Luckely it happened just now when I'm changing to Gentoo.. Otherwise there d be a whole lot of cursing right now :D
Ofcourse Id rather have my Slack box fully working during the transition period.. Im not changing my home disk till everythings ok anyhow..

Its annoying not being able to relate all the wierd stuff hapening to my dad.. Its agonising. We understood and had the same & right background.. Now that he s gone im left alone with all that. Now when wierd shite / funny shite happens (several times during my install today) I'm laughin here all alone.. One of the many moments where it kicks in :/

The worst form of torture is self chosen.. Really.. Its amazing what a person can put himself trough.. I'm deciding to stop putting myself trough it all.. Ofcourse, its normal I didnt decide this before, since every form needs its time.. Anywho, Im only trading it for another kind.. pf

I had a dark moment yesterday..
I have lots of dark moments to come..
Havent we all :)
pf

Had an interesting chat with a friend some days ago.. His words gave me hope altough they went against all I had concluded.. I dont really believe he made the right diagnose..

Spoke to Anne today.. Interesting! It helped my mood. Im actually immensely happy we talked! .. she s the person I can relate to most right now.. Because I know she knows the feeling and because I shared some of her feeling back when the trees were younger. Im really glad we talked

Sometimes I feel like telling people to go kill themselves.. This feeling is not new to me tough I had left it behind me.. Now that i'm older I understand the reasons better.. But understanding doesnt help the fact that I want to scream it in their ears as if that ll get it to their brain better

Dark Moods

I do think blogging helps
tough I hope in a way no one reads this.. The annonimity of Internet.. or is it :)

Hmm.. Emerging in two terminals.. why not. I'm installing tinycobol to my box.. I hope it proves a good Cobol compiler - Yeah, going retro @ school :D I hope the compiler proves OK.. Further installs (emacs & ..) will have to wait :)

How hatefull it is to wake up to your own soap

And now I'm off bloggin..
sayonara

Aliens was once again POWERFULL :)
Tough I think Giger could have done cooler stuff with the mother alien..

My body hurts from the festival.. Painfull
Tough it reminds you you're alive :)

No cobol for me tomorrow, I'll learn it from here..
& install my Gentoo with Coboll interpreter

I'm going to think about a small variation on Alanis Morisette's "21 things I want in a lover"

Original Text..
do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
do you have a big intellectual capacity
but know that it alone does not equate wisdom?
do you see everything as an illusion?
but enjoy it even though you are not of it?
are you both masculine and feminine?
politically aware?
and don't believe in capital punishment?
these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
do you derive joy from diving in and seeing
that loving someone can actually feel like freedom?
are you funny? à la self-deprecating?
like adventure? and have many formed opinions?

these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
these are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

I'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
there are no worries and certainly no pressure
in the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow

are you uninhibited in bed?
more than three times a week?
up for being experimental?
are you athletic?
are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?
are you not addicted?

...curious and communicative...

Im not sure yet how many things mine ll have but It ll be a List..
hehe
or maybe I wont - whatever

Im only now fully begining to appreciate Alanis Morisette's song "Ironic"
Sometimes life really is

Im starting to miss my Gaim Blogger plugin!
Loading & posting times sometimes on the blogger site :s

I finished "Tower of Doom", the Ravenloft novel I was reading & have now started "Mordenheim".. Another Ravenloft novel :D

Rock Ternat..
Yesterday was Festival day :) Didnt start off so well by missing Caliban & Flip Kowlier (the first because they were only added to the line up the same day..) What I DID see..

Orichas - Only shortly.. ok tough slightly dissapointing
God Forbid - EVIL! Gotta get me some of 'em cds :D
Dead Kenedys - Old geezers with NICE soundz (& a funny pitt)
Machine head - Evil! Great pitt & all.. If only John hadnt CHICKEDED OUT (Wanker)
Kosheen - Great as ever, Dance the night away
2 Many DJs - Crap.. Bad DJing & partly also bad speakers
Starsky & Tonic - Crap.. Bad DJing & partly also bad speakers (We didnt even finish this)

A very succesfull festival day :)
I am hurting everywhere tough :/
Funny thing - yesterday evening was the first time Everyone we drove home with felt tired.. LOL!

Had some other funny moments too.. David came to ask me if I fancied his girl & stuff like that :) Cute! Tough he shouldnt worry & I just hope he doesnt!!!


In a way.. I'm feeling very .. right now. ".." because I just cant find the right word for it & certainly not in english (They just all miss part of the message) - Anypoop, its all but a nice feeling :( But Ive known it before & I'll know it again so I'll cope with it :D

& now time for food & ....

I got WONDERFULL news just hours ago.. Several seperate things actually :)
One of them being a pic of the lovely Hannah Odessa :) Ashes' new born girl. She s beautifull :) That also means the birth & all went well, wich is SO cool :) I worried about em :s a lot! I didnt even tell about my dad yet :s I didnt want to upset ashes in any way so close to The Day!

Feelings.. Right now I feel..
Dissapointed
Relieved
Concerned
Happy
Envious
Woried

So very Alive!

Im off to bed! Early noon tomorrow :(

amazing

I guess deep down inside I really am very sensitive a person
but due to society I have a cozy shell, cushoning it all & protecting it all from society!

tough the real happyness can only be found trough the TRUE form
:s

What a revelations tonight..
It was brooding but didnt really come out till after the ride home

amazing

I sometimes say.. "As crazy as I am"
well, tonight I found out what I mean by that
& that it actually DOES exist

peace of mind is beatiful

I had a LOVELY night
I'd never expected it but still.. Lovely!
Tnx to David & Vi..

.. I had a wierd insight..
Its been long ago since I last had a Really active happy feeling :)
most ppl just cant cope with that but tonight in seeing the feeling, it sparked again..
amazing that I lost that.. Amazing & bothersome

Lets try to remedy this :)

& now a short nights sleep

Ah yes..
blogger is slow sometimes.. making me not wanting to wait ergo not posting

School is ok

Private life is nice too tough I am bracing my feelings
I have a zero tollerance mood at some points

& I HEAVILLY need a shower!

Later on RoD & getting those Rock Ternat tickets to Vi..

ah & school work too
& movie time :D

Ah yes..
blogger is slow sometimes.. making me not wanting to wait ergo not posting

School is ok

Private life is nice too tough I am bracing my feelings
I have a zero tollerance mood at some points

& I HEAVILLY need a shower!

Later on RoD & getting those Rock Ternat tickets to Vi..

ah & school work too
& movie time :D

My fate in humanity has been restored
I met an Evil girl this weekend :) They do still exist! (except the ones I know, you know who you are :D) Really nice person! Saw her again this evening @ the afterlife, we had fun

I saw the "Set-Up" @ ternat today..
Nice place!

Im so done for :/ School @ 10.30 ? I dont think so!
& I really SHOULD!!

Sleep!

im having troubles updating my template :s
anywho, its altered with the new links

Im really starting to miss Dirk
ANNOYING!

The life was Awsome
The people were great & I had an overall Good time!
Met some nice people too.. A girl with a mind for piercings amongst others..
Nice
Had some interesting experiences too :s :D
Im looking forward to the next life!

Updating some iPod

Im out of the JH.. kinda.. The departure didnt really go as I had wanted but its ok.. The result is the same! Tough this unforseen way is in a way a consequence of my dad dying

I parked my car in his spot today.. Uncanning.. Really wierd! Kinda permanent & stuff! It will be good for my car tough.. I have some work to do on it & well.. Its probably gonna happen sooner this way

I saw Rebecca today.. Nice talking to her again!

Im so Tired :/
I slept 4hrs today & .. well.. lets just say the 8 hrs ive got comming will do me some Serious GOOD

I talked to Les on the internet today.. Seems she s gonna be in a TV program next week.. GOTTA tape it :)

And now for some other work & SLEEEEEP

Testament..
This weekend was a Life weekend.. And I had FUN :)
We went with 14 Ring of Doom ppl & .. Evilness!

More later

Sleep now :)

Testament..
This weekend was a Life weekend.. And I had FUN :)
We went with 14 Ring of Doom ppl & .. Evilness!

More later

Sleep now :)

Testament..
This weekend was a Life weekend.. And I had FUN :)
We went with 14 Ring of Doom ppl & .. Evilness!

More later

Sleep now :)

Testament..
This weekend was a Life weekend.. And I had FUN :)
We went with 14 Ring of Doom ppl & .. Evilness!

More later

Sleep now :)